Andrea McLean was worried about "mentally falling off a cliff" when she had a hysterectomy.
Andrea McLean
The 'Loose Women' panellist made a return to the show on Monday (07.11.16) following her hysterectomy and admits she was worried how the procedure would affect her mental health.
She said: "I'm so happy to be back with the girls - it's my first show in six weeks, I'm so hormonal, I could cry.
"It's just coming up to six weeks since I had the hysterectomy - my biggest fear was mentally falling off a cliff. I was really worried about how it would affect me. Apart from the odd moment of being irrational I've been alright."
And the 47-year-old is glad her loved ones were not there to see her straight after she came out of the operation as she thinks it would be "difficult for them to see" her shaking and convulsing.
Describing what happened after the operation, she added: "I came around and I was shaking and convulsing - I was very cold. I felt very sick. I was glad [my family] weren't there because it would have difficult for them to see."
Having the operation was a tough decision for Andrea but she had the full support of her partner Nick Feeney.
Speaking on ITV's Loose Women, she shared: "It's realising you'll never have children together. His eyes filled up and he was like, 'Babe, where did this come from?' We had a moment and it was all good."
Meanwhile, Andrea previously opened up about how supportive Nick was when she made the tough decision to undergo the medical procedure.
She said: "I'm really, really happy in a relationship with a lovely man so it was obviously a big decision. Nick and I have children of our own and we hadn't talked about having children together before.
"I knew I would be an older mum but that we could still maybe have children if we wanted to. But I was also in constant pain and couldn't carry on any longer. Nick was brilliant, he just said, 'If you're OK, I'm OK, that's all that counts.' We made the decision, had a big hug and counted our blessings."
Andrea also feared she would wreck their relationship by having the operation.
She added: "It was a huge decision and although it was the best thing to do I was scared about it. I lay in bed worrying about falling of a cliff emotionally, becoming very down and depressed with feelings of loss.
"I'm the happiest I've ever been, I'm really settled and content, I've got a lovely relationship, our kids are in a really good place and I thought what if I spoil all of this? What if I become a hormonal wreck that everyone else has to pick up?"
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