Lauren Goodger will "never get over" the death of her child.
Lauren Goodger on death of daughter: 'It's a heartache feeling every day'
In 2022, her second daughter Lorena died after she was born with her umbilical cord wrapped around her neck and Lauren admitted that the only thing that kept her going was her older daughter Larose, now two.
She told MailOnline: "Losing my second daughter, the break up, everything that went on around that time, I just went into my own bubble of being a mum. It was Larose that kept me going.
"You'll never get over it. You never move on. But you learn to live and heal. I do want to help other people get through it because I can't.
"I can't explain. You would never be able to tell someone the feeling of losing your own child, no one should ever experience that.
"It changes you as a person because it's something missing. It's a heartache feeling every day.
"You just don't want to be here anymore.
"The only thing that kept me going was being a mum to Larose and that's why I'm strong and I can put on a brave face.
"It's about having good people around you and Larose is mine. She's the closest person to me, and that's why I'm so... I double love her. I double protect her."
Lauren, 37, split from Charles Drury, the father of her girls after he was accused of attacking her on the day of Lorena's funeral.
Although he was charged with assault and engaging in controlling or coercive behaviour, Lauren later withdrew her support for the case and a not guilty verdict was recorded.
He had denied all charges.
And, Lauren revealed they have tried to maintain a cordial relationship for Larose's sake.
She said: "It has not been easy, but we're at a place at the minute where it is running smoothly. Charles sees Larose very regularly."
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