Lauren Goodger found her first day back at 'The Only Way Is Essex' a "complete shock" after living in a "mum bubble".
Lauren Goodger is in talks with her ex to see if their daughter can go on TOWIE
The 37-year-old reality star first starred on the show in 2010, before leaving in 2015, although she has made a handful of appearances since then.
And she says now is the "right time" to make her full-time comeback after settling into life as a mum to her two-year-old daughter Larose - whose father is her former partner Charles Drury - and an horrific period in her life.
She told OK!: “I was going to go back two years ago but then I had Larose and then went through a terrible time with my second pregnancy and everything else, so it just wasn’t ever the right time.
“If the producers had spoken to me a year ago, I wouldn’t have done it – but I feel ready now.”
Although she found the first day tough, she soon felt right back at home.
She shared: “I wasn’t nervous because TOWIE’s sort of my home, but I’ve been in a mum bubble so the first day of filming was a complete shock.
“It’s like driving a car though. You might not do it for 10 years, but then you get back in the driver’s seat and pick it straight back up. You don’t forget what you’re doing. And when I was in mum mode, nothing else mattered for such a long time, but now I’m finding myself again."
She added: "I’m remembering who I was before I became a mum and that’s so important and healthy. All my friends have got jobs and work – most mums do – and I want Larose to see that I’ve got a job too.”
Lauren tragically lost her second daughter Lorena in July 2022 after her baby was born with her umbilical cord wrapped around her neck.
Charles was then arrested, and subsequently bailed, over an alleged assault on Lauren following the little one's funeral.
The star was further devastated to discover her ex-boyfriend Jake McLean - who she dated from 2012 to 2016 - died following a car crash the same month she lost her baby girl.
Lauren says she is "slowly healing" from the tragedies in her life.
She said: "After going through something like that, it isn’t just a straight situation of it’s bad and then it gets better – it comes in waves. In the beginning I was in shock. It took me a long time to really register what had happened.
"My body and my brain just couldn’t handle so much shock and trauma in one go so it sort of shut down to protect me. I’ll be completely honest, the reason I got through it all is because of Larose. She has kept me going and without her I probably wouldn’t be here. I’m in therapy and we’re working through it – I’m slowly healing.”
As for whether Larose will appear on the ITVBe show alongside her mum, she replied: “Her dad and I are discussing it together because I want us to agree.
“I don’t mind her being on the show at this age, but it would be different if she was a teenager. I’d love her to make a little cameo with Amy’s kids – that would be lovely.”
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