Vicky Pattison's social anxiety has "reached an all time high".
Vicky Pattison
The 32-year-old television personality admits she has had a tough week but has spoken out in the hope it will help others too.
She shared: "My social anxiety reached an all time high & I ended up feeling like I was physically unable to leave my apartment. The thought of walking out of my front door left me completely paralysed with fear & almost unable to breathe. Throughout the course of the week things just got worse a I hated myself for not being able to just snap out of it. What right did I have to be struggling? Why was I not able to just be like everyone else & be happy? I went to events & work & tried so hard to be the Vicky Pattison that I thought everyone wanted to see but inside i was so crippled with self doubt & fear that everyone could see through me that i started to cancel things- I couldn't face them. I knew what would help me feel better, but i didn't do any of it- I didn't talk to my mam or sister or Ercan- I convinced myself they had real problems & didn't have time to listen to my self indulgent whinging. I didn't train- cancelled two training sessions- convinced myself that I was so out of shape that people in the gym would laugh at me. Instead I did everything wrong- I drank most nights, didn't eat well & pretended like I was having the time of my life."
And Vicky has urged others to be "kind" to themselves.
She added in a lengthy post on her Instagram: "I'm human & It's ok for me to have down days. It's ok for us ALL to have down days. Just so you know. Be kind to yourself."
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