Vicky Pattison feels "lonely" and "down" due to trying to portray a perfect life on Instagram.
Vicky Pattison (c) Instagram
The 31-year-old reality star explained how she felt like a "fraud" after being thanked by women for being herself on social media even though she often posts "glossy, filtered" pictures which portray the image of a "perfect life".
Sharing a no-make up selfie, she wrote: "I felt like a fraud, like someone who is contributing to the problem that social media is creating in our society rather than someone who is fighting to be part of the solution.
"Glossy, filtered pics, glamorous locations, bikini shots, ads & an overall aesthetic of a perfect life stare back at me & there are no signs of the girl in this picture. (sic)"
The former 'Geordie Shore' star went on to explain that she wants to show a truthful version of herself and admitted that in reality she's "lonely" has "gained weight" and is "losing sleep" over the thought of attending the BAFTA Television Awards for the first time this weekend.
She said: "We are punishing ourselves because we aren't these people & they aren't even these f***ing people? It's all for the 'gram! So baring that in mind - this is me: I have a chest infection that I haven't been able to shake and it's making me cranky, I'm lonely, I've gained weight recently & it's getting me down no matter how much I pretend I'm ok with it, I'm going to the baftas for the first time on Sunday & I'm so nervous that I won't fit in or look as good as everyone else I'm losing sleep over it.
"[I] miss my mam, i'm sick of living out of a suitcase, I'm drowning in these thoughts and I don't feel inspirational. (sic)"
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