Trisha Goddard feared she'd given HIV to her daughter Billie shortly after giving birth.
Trisha Goddard
The 63-year-old TV presenter - who has Billie, 31, and Madison, 28, with her second husband Mark Greive - only discovered that her first husband, Australian politician Robert Nestdale, was secretly gay and had died of Aids after Billie's arrival.
She said: "I don’t know how I got through it. I was Robert’s wife and yet I didn’t know he had Aids.
"I remember going for this test and being horrified they might have to take blood from my tiny baby.
"But then the doctor said that wasn’t necessary because, if I had it and was breastfeeding, she would already have it.
"I’ll never forget this awful feeling, that I might have been passing on the disease through my milk. It was your worst nightmare. When I found out I had tested negative, I broke down and wept."
Trisha and Robert's relationship was on the rocks before they even tied the knot.
The duo had already started sleeping in separate beds at Robert’s Sydney home and she knew she wasn't in love at the time.
She told The Sun on Sunday newspaper: "Even as he was slipping the engagement ring on to my finger I knew I wasn’t in love - and I wasn’t so sure he was happy either.
"It was the same at our wedding. As I stood beside him at the altar, I thought, ‘What have you done, you silly cow?’
"I married him because he could take me to places. There’s no denying that my behaviour was mercenary. But his motives for marrying me were suspect too."
Trisha also admitted that their sex life was terrible.
She shared: "Robert either couldn’t do it or would lose interest. Within three months we were in separate beds."
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