Ollie and Gareth Locke's surrogate has suffered a miscarriage.
Ollie and Gareth Locke's surrogate has suffered a miscarriage
The 'Made in Chelsea' stars have shared the heart-breaking news, and Ollie admitted it has left him feeling "demasculated" that they have been unable to conceive so far.
Speaking on the Bali special of the E4 show, Ollie said: "We just can't believe it's happened again."
Gareth added: "This is our third time. Every time it's like ... 'Oh well next time surely it's going to happen.'
"It feels like every time you're going to have to redo it, it just feels like it's a bit, a step further away.
"Obviously we're in a very fortunate position, we can go again. But you know it's not, it's not easy."
Ollie admitted he feels "embarrassed" that he and Gareth are yet to have a baby together.
Speaking to his co-stars Emily Blackwell and Miles Nazaire on the show, Ollie said: "Can I tell you something really savage as well? And this is a weird, personal thing, and I know this isn't how I should be feeling.
"And I know this, but I get so embarrassed. I haven't even called my dad yet. Because I'm embarrassed by ...
"I'll tell you the reason is, weirdly, I feel demasculated. And I know that's really silly, but this is me talking frankly to you guys, and I know I shouldn't feel like that, but I feel embarrassed that it hasn't worked for us.
"And it's so stupid, but I'm just waiting for long enough, for someone to tell dad, so I don't have to.
"But embarrassment is such a weird emotion, to have when it's actually like, that should be the last of your thoughts."
Last December, Ollie and Gareth told how their surrogate had tragically miscarried at six weeks.
In July 2021, the couple - who married in November 2020 - told how their first IVF attempt had been unsuccessful.
Ollie said at the time: "I think our expectations were very high and we really thought it was going to work, but nature's nature and we can't do anything about it.
"We have to think that it wasn't meant to be and we are going to go ahead in a month or so and do it again. We're optimistic.
"Sometimes it just doesn't work. But that's not going to stop us from trying again and again."
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