Malin Andersson felt “a little bit of guilt” about falling pregnant after she tragically lost her daughter Consy.
Malin Andersson felt 'a little bit of guilt' about falling pregnant after she tragically lost her daughter Consy
The ex ‘Love Island’ star experienced a “longing kind of sorrow” for her first daughter - who died at four weeks after being born seven weeks premature - with her ex Tom Kemp, following the birth of her daughter Xaya, now seven months.
The 29-year-old television personality told GB News: “You know, people were like, a lot of people said, ‘You know, oh my God, you’re so lucky. You’re rainbow baby should be happy. You know, the start of something new.’ But deep down there was this longing kind of sorrow for Consy, and almost feeling a little bit of guilt I was pregnant again.
“Grief is very complex, and it’s something more people have to understand. And also not to mention that when I was pregnant, getting asked if ‘this was your first,’ I’d be like, in my head obviously, I wouldn’t bother saying anything because I wouldn’t want to get into it.”
Malin - who split from Xaya’s father Jared soon after her birth - believes losing a child is still seen as a "taboo subject”.
She said: “I think it’s something that isn’t spoken about at all and it’s almost a taboo subject where I don’t hear about baby loss.
“I was the first in my kind of friendship circle and my friends to have lost a child.
“And when I went through it I felt ever so lonely, so I think the more talking we do about it, the more awareness we can raise, and you know, people feel less alone.”
Malin admitted she thinks others “feel quite awkward” mentioning Consy, but she wants to remember her little one and tell bereaved parents “their feelings are valid” .
She said: “You know, it makes me feel like she was here at some point and when people kind of skirt around, it's like, you know, they're trying to forget that it happens and obviously that's not the case. They just don't know what to say.
“I think speaking about it, just really normalises it and makes the mother or father feel you know that their feelings are valid.”