Louise Thompson will "never be mentally strong enough" to carry another child, following the traumatic birth of her two-year-old son Leo.
Louise Thompson won't be 'mentally strong enough' to carry another child after near-death experience
The former 'Made in Chelsea' star has told how she watched herself almost "bleed to death" while she underwent an emergency C-section in November 2021, and she believes being awake during the operation "definitely contributed" to the development of PTSD.
Louise has now told how she won't ever fall pregnant naturally again, but it is possible she could freeze some eggs one day.
Asked if she will ever be able to have kids again, she said on ITV's 'Lorraine': "It’s still fairly inconclusive. I will never mentally be strong enough to carry a child and physically I have something called Asherman syndrome, where my uterus is glued together with scar tissue.
"I suppose in one sense it’s a bit of a miracle that I didn’t have to have a hysterectomy, so I do still have a womb.
"I had a year with no periods, then I had a surgery to try and fix that and then that ended up in another haemorrhage, so where I am left currently is that the hospital have sort of said, 'It would be too threatening. We wouldn't want to do another surgery in that area. Let’s let you live.'
"Equally, I am so grateful to have one beautiful, healthy child who has lots of friends and cousins.
"I do have ovaries and embryos so there is a chance I could freeze some eggs ... when I am ready."
Louise admitted the traumatic events also affected her relationship with fiance Ryan Libbey.
The star admitted they had "no relationship" in the early days of her recovery, because the pair were still "so traumatised" from dealing with their "own version of PTSD".
Speaking about the effect that the trauma had on her partner, she said: "I think throughout the recovery, especially in the early days, we had no relationship.
"We were both so traumatised dealing with our own version of PTSD. He is still not in a place where he feels ready to start proper therapy yet.
"When I finally did come home after spending nearly a month in hospital, he would lie awake all night checking on me, all night worried I was going to die. He would have flashbacks too.
"He maybe had more typical PTSD symptoms, like a lot of avoidance symptoms.
"He never wanted to talk about anything and he would get really angry whenever he drove past the hospital and he couldn’t go in.
"He’s now had to take Leo for one appointment and that was very brave of him to break that cycle.
"The impacts of trauma have really been like a tidal wave. They rip their way through every aspect of your life.
But Louise - who had a stoma bag, which she calls Winnie, fitted last month due to an ongoing "very serious medical condition" - admitted she is "95 per cent" back to her old self now.
She added: "I am doing really well now. I’m 95 per cent back to the old me.
"I feel so good. This is the best I have felt in two and a half, three years and even pre-pregnancy. I feel really well,
"[But] I will still have to live with having PTSD for my whole life. It’s not just something you can get rid of."
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