Lauren Goodger has thanked her fans for their support following an "horrendous" time in her life.
Lauren Goodger thanks fans for support after 'horrendous' time
The former 'The Only Way is Essex' star tragically lost her daughter Lorena last month after her baby was born with her umbilical cord wrapped around her neck, her boyfriend Charles Drury was then arrested, and subsequently bailed, over an alleged assault on her following the little one's funeral, and last month her ex-boyfriend Jake McLean - who she dated from 2012 to 2016 - died aged 33 following a car crash.
The 35-year-old star - who has 12-month-old daughter Larose with Charles - has now taken to Instagram to reveal she has "lost but also gained some values" during such a "traumatic time", and she has been asking her late daughter Lorena to give her "strength and courage".
She wrote: "Just want to say thank you to everyone for all the love and support in this horrendous terrible whirlwind in my life the last few weeks! I do read your messages thank you.
During this traumatic time I've lost but I've also gained some values in this awful heartbroken time … some new friends and become closer to my current ones and some family ..it really has shown me who is meant to be in my life and I love each and every one one of you thank you .. I only have a few and that's all I need and it's taught me some life long lessons however hard it's been.
Asked Lorena when I had her at home the night before her funeral 'please guide me please let my life, lead the path it's meant to be and give me strength and courage' and a lot changed instantly and I trust her. She is making my new path thank you Lorena I love you and I know you’re with me always and I know you've cleared out and made way for what's meant to be. (sic)"
Lauren also admitted the last few months have made her realise that Larose is her "rock".
She added: "I don't know why I have no answers but I have to trust the process I'll never ever get over it but I'm learning and Larose is my rock. She has kept me going mentally and physically I love you so much my special girl (sic)"
Builder Charles, 25, was arrested earlier this month on suspicion of assault and later bailed "pending further inquiries".
A Metropolitan Police spokesman said at the time: “Police were called at 00.37 hrs on Thursday, August 4 to reports of an altercation at a residential address in Upminster, Essex.
"Officers attended. At the scene a woman, aged 30s, was found with facial injuries.
"A man, aged 25, was arrested on suspicion of assault.
"He was taken to an east London police station and subsequently bailed pending further inquiries. Inquiries continue."
Lauren recently admitted she "doesn't blame anyone" for the death of her daughter.
Speaking in July, she said: "I plan to go to see her soon to say my final goodbyes. I wasn't going to have a post-mortem at first, but I changed my mind. I feel like I need answers. I need more of an understanding of why this happened. I don't blame anyone, I can't.
"It is what it is, and obviously, it's awful. I'd do anything to rewind it. I guess I can blame myself, but then again I think it's happened and I can't change it.
"I have to try and move forwards and accept it. But first I need to understand it. That's why I changed my mind about the post-mortem."
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