Kerry Katona didn't understand what she did wrong during her disastrous 2008 interview on 'This Morning'.
Kerry Katona baffled by backlash to This Morning interview
The 42-year-old star was accused by viewers of being intoxicated as she slurred her words while being interviewed by Phillip Schofield and Fern Britton on the ITV1 daytime show and Kerry admitted she was puzzled by the outrage.
Speaking on Slingo's Getting Lippy Gossip Show, she said: "After my 'This Morning' interview you thought I'd killed somebody and I'm just like I don't understand what it is I've done so wrong?
"I've had speech therapy and I've got a lazy tongue and with my ADHD and way I talk sometimes I don't pronounce the words properly. Then you put in the medication I was on and your speech is slurred and it's like 'oh she's this, she's that'."
Kerry - who has children Molly, 21, Lilly-Sue, 20, Heidi, 16, Max, 14, and eight-year-old DJ - also revealed she was left feeling suicidal after the backlash from the interview but remained strong for her kids.
She explained: "I witnessed my mum slit her wrists from the age of three. She was always trying to kill herself and I said I'll never do that to my children.
"But there were times I actually wanted to take my… I'm gonna cry... but I would never do that to my kids.
"Because I feel like that's where my lack of self worth came from because I was never good enough for me mum. I never want my kids to feel like that."
And, Kerry said she is her "own hero" after turning her life around.
She said: "I got more known for my downfalls. There’s so many times I should be dead, times I was suicidal because I had nowhere to run.
"I now have this platform and I feel like I’ve been a beacon of harassment, bullying mockery, torment and I’ve got through it and you know what it took me to the age of 36 to realise that your opinion doesn’t matter, it's not my business what you think about me, all that matters is what my kids think of me and before that I was in a pity party.
"I just feel like I'm here for a reason and that reason is to give people hope because I never had that hope. There was nobody like me who I looked up to.
"And it sounds really narcissistic and egotistic if people go 'who did you look up to, who's your hero?' me I am my own hero because no one helped me - be your own hero."
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