Danniella Westbrook tried to kill herself nine times last year.
Danniella Westbrook
The 43-year-old actress - who has openly admitted to battling with a drug addiction, which reportedly saw her take 11 packets of cocaine every day - has admitted her split from former toyboy lover George Arnold at the beginning of last year almost pushed her over the edge and forced her to contemplate suicide numerous times.
Speaking to Now magazine about her life, the former 'EastEnders' star - who played the role of Samantha Mitchell in the long-standing soap - said: "I'm an addict and the wheels fell off. I was dabbing cocaine in my mouth and rubbing it around my gums to numb the pain. People think I was hoovering cocaine up my nose again but I wasn't. I was wiping it around my gums. I feel trapped in my own body. If you're a cocaine addict you're sweaty, you're jumpy, you're paranoid, you're horrible.
"[I was taking] nowhere near what I was doing before, but it was enough. It could have killed me. I didn't want to live, I hated myself. Last year I tried to kill myself eight or nine times. It was after George and I broke up."
And, although she couldn't stop taking the drug, Danniella has admitted "being of her face" on the Class A substance is the "s***test" feeling.
She explained: "Each time I've been high on drugs - it's the sh***est place to be."
However, it seems Danniella had a rough year throughout 2016 as she appeared to be at death's door over the summer when she was struck down with septicaemia.
She was forced to have her teeth ripped out so that doctors could treat the condition - also known as blood poisoning - and that plunged her deeper into depression.
And things went from bad to worse towards the end of the year as in the run up to Christmas, Danniella was also made homeless and her car was repossessed.
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