Brenda Edwards will "never get over" the death of her son.

Brenda Edwards will never get over the death of her son

Brenda Edwards will never get over the death of her son

The 54-year-old star was mother to entrepreneur Jamal - who helped launch the careers of Ed Sheeran and Jessie J with his urban music platform SB.TV. - and following his death in February 2022 at the age of 31 after suffering a heart attack, has explained that she still wants to know exactly what his death was for, especially after she lost her own parents when she was a child.

She told The Sun newspaper's Fabulous magazine: "It's not anger, it’s more the question of why. I wish I knew why. It’s been 48 years since my parents passed and I’m still not over that. “I still cry every single Christmas and so losing Jamal is definitely not going to disappear. But I have to try to learn to live with it. Somehow. And one way that really does help me is by doing things that are positive and can help other people.”

"When I got Jamal his first video camera at 15, he used to film foxes in the garden and put them up on YouTube. Just recently there was a little fox who came to play with me. I’ve never seen a fox that close, but it came up as if it was one of my cats. His eyes were so cute, so big, so sweet and he was listening to me when I was speaking. Then I said his name. I said: ‘Jamal . . . ’ and that’s when the fox got up and walked away. So I had acknowledged that he was there and I will continue to do that. I talk to him every single day but it’s always bittersweet because I’m never going to get over this.”

The 'Loose Women' panellist - who also has daughter Tanesha - went on to add that even though she knew her son was a successful businessman, she "never realised" quite how busy he was and takes comfort in speaking to those who knew him.

She added: "I mean, I knew he was busy, he had three phones, so I knew that! But I didn’t realise quite how busy he was. I’ve spoken to so many people who have said that whenever they were feeling low, Jamal would cheer them up. I’ve had messages from people saying they were close to ending their life, but Jamal had talked them down. That was really moving for me to hear!"

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