Jennifer Lopez and ex-husband Marc Anthony
Jennifer Lopez was "consumed with anxiety" during her marriage to Marc Anthony.
The 'Booty' singer, who split from the Latin heartthrob in 2011 after seven years of marriage, decided to end their marriage after suffering a panic attack while preparing for a photoshoot.
In an extract from her upcoming memoir, 'True Love,' obtained by PEOPLE magazine, the 45-year-old star, who has six-year-old twins, Max and Emme, with Marc, reveals: "As I sat there getting made up, my heart was beating out of my chest and I felt like I couldn't breathe... I became consumed with anxiety. What was happening to me? I leaped from my chair and said to my dear manager Benny Medina, 'Benny, something is happening! I feel like I'm going crazy.' My mom was there and she rushed to my side too.
"It was one of those moments when you're so scared you can't even scream. In a blur of fear and panic, I looked at Benny and my mother and blurted out the words: 'I don't think I can be with Marc anymore.' Then I burst into tears."
She adds: "It was out. The thing I feared more than anything in the world. I collapsed into their arms and began to sob. Anybody looking from the outside in would have thought my life was great. I had a husband and two beautiful children. I was on 'American Idol' and my new single 'On The Floor' had gone to number one all over the world.
"What people didn't know was that life really wasn't that good. My relationship was falling apart and I was terrified."
The star announced her split from Marc a month later and calls it the "Hardest.Day.Ever."
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