Kelly Osbourne reveals how she was once put in a padded cell arranged by her mum, to help her overcome her drug addiction
Now with her life firmly back on track Kelly talks about dealing with her demons, about the defining moments that shaped her life and her real true 'hero'. She goes on to reveal her plans for the future and her love for fiancee Matthew Mosshart in a truly frank and honest view of life.
Kelly on Rehab
“’I've been to rehab seven times and to two mental institutions. My mum even had me put in a padded cell once to scare me, but like a brat I just sat it out until she said, ‘Well, that’s not going to work.’ But what ’I've learnt is that no amount of therapy or medication is going to work unless you want it to. Until you want to be a good person, you will never be one. “
On her drug addiction
Kelly reveals that she used to keep her drugs a secret purely because she didn't want to share her stash:
“I was never one of those people who was like, ‘Let’s party; let’s go and do loads of coke.’ In fact, I would never even tell anyone I had drugs because I wanted them all to myself. I was quite selfish. What changed for me was looking around and seeing that nobody liked me or wanted to work with me.”
Kelly dropped her career to become her mum’s nurse when Sharon was diagnosed with cancerThe moments that defined her.
The most sobering moment came when she dropped her career to become her mum’s nurse when Sharon was diagnosed with cancer:
“When I was 18, I was set to play Lindsay Lohan’s best friend in [2003 movie] Freaky Friday. Then my mum got diagnosed with cancer. I was faced with the choice of a career or spending what could have been the last days of my mother’s life with her. I said, ‘F**k you, career, hello, Mother.’ I became my mum’s nurse 24/7. I gave her injections and medicines when she had seizures. I even had a parking space at the hospital with my name on it. I thought I was going to lose her – it was awful.”
Her second sobering moment came in 2003 when dad Ozzy had a near-fatal crash on a quad bike; Kelly slept on the floor for four months to be by his side:
“He couldn't move from the neck down and was basically a paraplegic, so I slept on the floor by the side of his bed for four months. I brushed his teeth and washed his clothes, and every day we ’d put on our swimsuits and I’ d shower him. Not many people can say they've wiped their mother and father’s arses more than they've wiped their own.”
Brother Jack.
Jack’s her hero and she wishes she could take his pain away:
“When you get told that your little brother – the one you would do anything for – has a disease that most people don’t even understand [Jack was diagnosed with multiple sclerosis in 2012], you’re like, ‘So my mum had cancer, my dad almost died and now my brother has MS. What the f**k is happening?’ You think, ‘Wow. He’s such a hero.’ He walks around like he doesn’t have it – you’d never even know. He’s so brave and strong and willing to do anything he can to find a cure. And you know what? I wish I had it instead of him. I think about all the f**ked-up things I’ve done, yet my life is perfect. I wish I could take it away from him.”
Matthew Mosshart
Now engaged to Matthew Mosshart, Kelly feels lucky to have him by her side:
“I’m so lucky to have somebody as special as Matthew. I tend not to talk about relationships, because everything else is so out there and the only thing that is mine is my fiancee. The only thing I’ll say is that you will never learn what love is on any level until you let someone love you the way you deserve to be loved.”
On the future and Kids
She’d like children, a boy and a girl, but they’d be raised in England:
“I want to have kids – a boy and a girl… I’d like to live in England when I do, as I will not have a baby call me ‘Mom’. I will kill myself before being called that. I’m in no rush, though – I’m happy watching my brother do it first.”
Kelly and Louis Van AmstelLouis Van Amstel, her dance partner in Dancing With The Stars back in 2009:
“[Louis] brought something out in me that even the best doctors and psychiatrists in the world weren’t able to bring out, and he taught me that if you have dedication and commitment – if you try hard enough – you can do things you don’t think you can do…. He is the only person who truly made me believe in myself; he made me see that you’re only ever going to be you – you can’t be anyone else.”
Being true to herself.
“I can’t lie; it’s been hard having people say, ‘You’re fat,’ and, ‘You’re a beached whale,’ But I’ve been judged since I popped out, and I’ve never known anything else. What’s been great is overcoming that and understanding that these people are just idiots who hurt your feelings because they want a reaction. I’m proud of proving them wrong.”
“I’m not perfect, but I don’t want to be the prettiest in the room. I will always have a mouth like a truck driver and I will always be tomboyish. It’s about realising that, no matter how hard you try, you will only ever be yourself.”
Best friend KateHer best friend Kate - she’s just an ordinary person:
“Kate Moss and Jamie Hince are my best friends. Kate is the sweetest person ever. People portray her as such a diva or so difficult, but she’s not. She’s fun and down to earth. She’d only kick off if she had a damn good reason to.”
The full interview appears in the September issue of British Cosmopolitan, on sale 8th August.