Shannen Doherty is still "impacted" by her battle with breast cancer.
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The 45-year-old actress was diagnosed with the disease in 2015, and although she thankfully went into remission in April this year, she admits the illness is "with [her] forever", and despite being free from the potentially life-threatening condition, she still needs "support and love" from her family.
Taking to Instagram on Thursday (12.10.17) to post an emotional throwback photo of herself crying with clumps of hair in her hands as a result of aggressive chemotherapy treatment, Shannen wrote: "Breast Cancer Awareness month. This image is so personal to me. I had started chemo. Was using a cold cap in hope to not lose my hair. End result was clumps in my hands. I was sick, felt like I was losing myself. Gained people and lost people. Got weak and got strong. Felt ugly and yet more beautiful inside than I had ever felt before. I remember this like it was yesterday, like it was a minute ago. Cancer has so many phases. Shock, denial, acceptance, anger, resentment, rebellion, fear, appreciation, beauty. Remission. Even then, the phases keep coming. Cancer is with you forever. Those who have experienced it know that even after you've kicked it's ass, it still impacts you, in good ways and bad. You still go thru the roller coaster of emotions. You still need support and love. And you can still grasp life and live, live live. #cancer #cancerslayer (sic)"
Despite having been given the all clear, Shannen recently admitted that since her diagnoses, every small amount of pain her body feels makes her worry, and admits she has to keep pushing forward or else she risks letting the fear of the disease "overtake" her.
She said: "You find yourself going, 'Oh, I have that pain too. Does that mean I'm getting bone cancer?' There's not a day that goes by that I don't wake up going, 'Oh, is this normal?' And then I sort of slap myself and go, 'OK, you're being silly.'
"The thing about cancer is that you have to just keep plowing through because it can really sort of overtake you."
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