Peter Andre and his family still cannot talk about the death of his brother Andrew because the pain is too great almost four years later.
Peter Andre
The 'Mysterious Girl' singer lost his older sibling at the age of 54 in December 2012 following a battle with cancer.
Peter admits he still hasn't come to terms with the loss of Andrew and he and his parents Savvas and Thea, his other brothers Chris, Danny and Michael and sister Debby still struggle to speak about him when they are together.
During an interview on 'This Morning', he said: "(Losing my brother) tore my family apart. We have not to this day - nearly four years later - sat down as a family and talked about it, because it is literally still so raw."
Peter, 43, has been busy writing his new book 'Between Us' and he admits he found it very hard to even write about the time his brother was battling cancer how he felt after his death.
He added: "I was nearly two weeks late delivering [the book] because that was the only chapter I couldn't do. My brothers won't read it. They said, 'Bro I hope you don't mind, but we don't really want to read it.' "
Peter once again praised his now-wife Emily MacDonagh - with whom he has two-year-old daughter Amelia and another baby on the way - for picking him up when he was at his lowest ebb.
And the TV star - who also has two children, Junior, 11, and Princess, nine, from his relationship with his ex-wife Katie Price - revealed the reason he and his family have such a close bond is because of the bullying and racist abuse they experienced when they moved to Australia to live when he was a teenager.
He shared: "You understand why we're so close as a family and that's because of what happened to us in Australia when we were younger. When you go through that you're so close that the pain is so great no matter who it is and it just so happened to be my oldest brother."
Recalling the bullying he was subjected to Down Under, Peter - who is of Greek Cypriot descent - said: "When you got bullied by the teachers, you knew then you had nowhere to run ... this was because of our race and nationality.
"Even later when I had some success this guy just said, 'Who do you think you are?' And threw me into this bathroom and put a knife to my throat ... I'll never forget that moment in a Sydney nightclub and that happened 20 years ago and I've never been to a Sydney nightclub since. It's scarred me that much that even in England, I don't go to nightclubs which is ridiculous. I know if I went back to Oz I'm sure it'd be OK but I just fear it."
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