Paul O'Grady has "withdrawn" since Cilla Black died.
Paul O'Grady
The 60-year-old presenter was devastated when his close friend passed away in August and he admits he is still in a "strange state" as he comes to terms with her passing.
He said: "After anyone close to you dies, you're in a strange state for a while.
"I've withdrawn a bit and gone into myself. I just get on with my work. I'm not in the mood for partying, put it that way.
"I was destroyed after her funeral. We were so close. We knew what each other was thinking. We had a special bond.
"I used to say to her, 'You'll see me out, you' and I got that wrong, didn't I?"
Paul - who has previously suffered two heart attacks - admitted Cilla's passing has made him question his own life, but he has no plans to quit work and slow down.
He told Closer magazine: "It does make you start to think a bit more about your own mortality. But I've no plans to retire. I'm 60 now but still enjoying it.
"And taking stock of your life is depressing - it dampens ambitions if you start thinking like that."
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