Nikki Bella cries “once a day” over how much she loves her son.

Nikki Bella

Nikki Bella

The 36-year-old former wrestler welcomed her son Matteo into the world in July, and has now said she’s “so in love” with the tot - whom she has with her fiancé, Artem Chigvintsev - that she’s moved to tears at least once a day.

She said: "I'm just so in love. Literally, I cry once a day because I have never felt love like this. He has made me mushy!”

And whilst the beauty has “so many” favourite moments from her first few months of parenting, Nikki highlighted one particular moment that made her feel “so special and loved”.

She recalled during an interview with E! News: "I just recently I had to leave for a few hours to work. When I walked in the door and he heard my voice and saw me he got so excited and started smiling and laughing so big! And then immediately wanted to get into my arms and he gave me the biggest embrace! I have never felt so special and loved!”

Meanwhile, Nikki recently opened up about her battle with postpartum depression, saying she felt particularly lonely after Artem, 38, headed to Los Angeles for work, leaving her with Matteo in Phoenix, Arizona.

She explained: “I didn’t realise at week seven, you kind of come out of your baby blues and … go two different paths. You go the path of being healthy or you go down the path of being depressed, and that depression path can be a really dark, deep hole. I was starting to feel invisible. … It just started to build up. Being alone with Matteo and just feeling lonely and not loved and invisible.”

The ‘Total Bellas’ resented Artem for going to work at first, but eventually the pair sat down to discuss their feelings.

She said: "I am such a pleaser and I try to be a perfect girlfriend or a perfect fiancée so I act extra supportive even if something's bothering me deep down inside.

“I felt bad for Artem because it made him feel terrible and then he's like, 'I wish you came to me sooner.’ He was just so sad at the fact that I was feeling all these things and I never told him.

"Communication is key. Talking to people is key. If you are someone who's fighting postpartum [depression] and you're just trying to be strong like I was, you can't. We can't win this battle. We cannot fight postpartum depression; we just physically and mentally can't and we have to talk to people."


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