Michelle Rodriguez felt like an "animal" after Paul Walker's death.
Michelle Rodriguez
The 'Furious 7' star struggled to cope with the loss of her co-star - who tragically died in November 2013 from injuries sustained in a car crash - and admits she almost felt "jealous" that he had gone first.
Speaking in a clip for documentary The Reality of Truth, she said: "I have to say, you know, when I lost Paul, I went through about a year of just being an animal. Like, what could I do, physically, to just get my mind off of existentialism? Get my mind off of how transient life is and how we come here and can just disappear at any moment. How could I get my mind off that?
"I did everything I could possibly do to hide from myself and I'll tell you that my Ayahuasca trip made me sad that he left me here. It wasn't a sadness that he's gone, it's more like a jealousy that he's there first."
Meanwhile, the 37-year-old actress previously admitted she struggled to feel "alive" herself as she dealt with her tragic loss.
She explained: "I actually went on a bit of a binge. I went crazy a little bit .... I went pretty crazy. A lot of the stuff I did last year I would never do had I been in my right mind.
"I felt like nothing I could do could make me feel alive, so I just kept pushing myself harder and harder. I was travelling and I was having sex. And I was just trying to ignore everything that I was feeling."
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