Lily Allen doesn't think she'll "ever really recover" from the "trauma" of giving birth to her stillborn son George in 2010.
Lily Allen
The 33-year-old singer was left traumatised when she went into early labour whilst carrying her first child, who was stillborn after her umbilical cord became wrapped around his neck.
Lily claims she spent "12 hours" with her son "deceased in between [her] legs", and says she doesn't think she'll ever be able to put the harrowing labour behind her.
She said: "The hardest thing about that was losing a child, but there were complications with the actual delivery. He was so small he actually got stuck halfway in and halfway out, so to speak, during the delivery, and because his skin wasn't fully formed they couldn't [use] forceps [to] pull him out.
"So there was a period of about 12 hours of lying there with him deceased in between my legs, which was incredibly [traumatic]. I went into trauma and I don't think I'll ever really recover from that."
The 'Trigger Bang' hitmaker - who now has daughters Ethel, six, and Marnie, five, with her ex-husband Sam Cooper - originally had a stitch in her cervix to try and prevent her from going into early labour, but when that broke a week later, she then gave birth to her "really really small" son.
She added: "I went into early labor and they put a stitch in my cervix to try and stop that from developing, and that lasted for the best part of a week.
"The stitch broke and I went into full-blown labor and the baby was really, really small. And as I was delivering him, the doctors said, 'There was a pulse and now there no longer is.' The cord was wrapped around his neck and he was just too small."
Lily got pregnant again "very quickly" following the loss with her eldest daughter Ethel, but the family was plagued with hardship once again shortly after the tot's birth.
Speaking in an interview for BBC Radio 4's 'Woman's Hour', she said: "She actually was very ill for the first eight months of her life, and three months after she was born I then found out that I was pregnant with Marnie. So babies became my focus in that period of time."
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