Lamar Odom still considers himself "a big part of the Kardashian family".
Lamar Odom with Khloé Kardashian
The 35-year-old former LA Lakers star - who was dumped by wife Khloé Kardashian in December 2013 following months of rumours he was addicted to drugs and cheating on her - admits he is struggling to move on from his life with his ex, even though she is dating James Harden, and his life as part of the reality TV clan.
He told Life & Style Weekly magazine: "I love Khloé in a place where there is no space or time, so it's infinite. I can't control it. I think I'm still a big part of the Kardashian family."
Khloé was left "emotionally shaken" by her encounter with Lamar last month after he reportedly shouted at her outside a Soul Cycle class in Beverly Hills and the next day she caught a private plane to Texas to see James.
An insider previously said: "It was a really scary morning. She was totally freaked out, she had no idea how he found her.
"Not only was it a surprise to see him, but it truly was a scary interaction.
"She's such a strong woman, it's crazy to think about what she's gone through. But she was absolutely emotionally shaken from this."
Khloé, 30, and Lamar are currently waiting for a judge to finalise their divorce.
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