Kerry Katona's earliest memory is watching her mother slit her wrists when Kerry was just three years old.
Kerry Katona's shocking childhood
The 43-year-old reality TV star opened up about the toll her troubled childhood took on her, admitting she never felt like she was good enough because of her mother's suicide attempt.
Speaking to Abbey Clancy on her 'Exhibit A' podcast, Kerry explained: "I think my biggest thing was always feeling not good enough because you know when you watch your mum trying to kill herself and you're like 'am I not good enough for you want to be here?'
"So I was pretty f***** up before I became famous anyway.
"I remember sitting in rehab and I couldn't believe I let myself get so low and I kept thinking if this is in my DNA and if it is a genetic thing and I thought the one thing I never want my kids to feel is unloved and not wanted by me, because that is how I felt."
And Kerry even got the names of two of her daughters inked on her wrists, in order to stop her from doing what her mother did.
She said: "I thought if this is [self-harming] something that I might end up doing, so I got Molly and Lily tattooed on my wrist because I thought I'd be so selfish to put my kids through that.
"No matter what's going on in my life I want my kids to know I love them so much and I'm never going to leave them."
Kerry has Molly, 22 and Lilly-Sue, 20, with first husband Brian McFadden; Heidi, 16, and Max, 15, with second husband Mark Croft; and Dylan Jorge, nine, with her late third husband George Kay.
Abbey told Kerry: "I do feel it's unfair knowing your tragic start to life, the most unimaginable things you know it sounds like a film.
"It's like unbelievable. No one ever praises you because I think it's a success story."
Kerry replied: "Oh massively and you know I have said there was no role model for me.
"I've always been a grafter and I think if I didn't have my kids I don't think I'd be here today. I don't think I'd have got through it especially the after Brian left me."
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