Katie Price says the thought of returning to her Jordan alter ego makes her "feel sick".
Katie Price
The 42-year-old star is sober now and can't see herself ever returning to her wild partying days as she is "grown" and "stronger" now.
She said: "I wrote a powerful letter because they make you do that to your demons. I don’t even think about doing it now. It makes me feel sick; I’ll be the best person now. What I mean is, I’m focused and back to normal. I’ve started working again and it’s going well. I’m happy and the kids have seen a difference. I used to love a Tia Maria and Coke on Christmas Day, or a porn star martini, and I didn’t even think about it. There’s no alcohol in my house at all, we don’t drink. This is just the new normal for me. I look back to how I was, and I would never ever wish that on anyone. I never knew when I’d had enough and I’d become all exhibitionist - I don’t ever want to be like that again. I’ve grown, I’m stronger and I don’t need to run away or numb my emotions anymore."
And Katie is incredibly hopeful for the future after meeting Carl Woods.
Speaking to The Sun newspaper about her future and the year ahead, she added: "It’s been a bad year for a lot of people, but for me it’s been a good year because I’ve met Carl and I sorted myself out. It’s all happened really fast but I know Carl is the man for me. He’s The One and I couldn’t be happier - look at me! It would be amazing to enter the New Year with a baby on the way and a ring on my finger. We’ve been trying - I’ll find out if I’m pregnant on the 29th because that’s when my period is due."
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