Courtney Love "chants and prays" for Kurt Cobain to mark the day he died.
The Hole singer, who was married to the tragic Nirvana star from 1992 until he committed suicide in 1994, insists 20 years on she still thinks about his death "every single day".
She said: "Kurt's death was just the biggest low, man. I have my own private stuff that I do [to mark it] that I don't really wanna share with the world. It's just my thing. It still makes me sad that it happened, every single day.
"On the anniversary day itself, you sort of battle through it. I do my chanting and praying."
Courtney was unsure whether she is playing on the anniversary of his death yesterday (05.04.14) but says she doesn't want to.
She explained to NME magazine in an interview conducted before the memorial: "I don't like the message it sends out. I'd rather celebrate his birthday than celebrate his death day, but people tend to celebrate the death day, don't they? Even with Elvis and Lennon, that's just the tradition of how it happens in rock 'n' roll, I guess."
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