Chrissy Teigen says losing her son Jack "saved" her.
Chrissy Teigen
The 'Sports Illustrated' star devastatingly suffered a miscarriage last year and whilst it was a devastating tragedy for her, she admits it has been "transformative" for her and helped her discover therapy and sobriety and she is feels much better about herself.
Admitting how the tragic loss had changed her, she shared: "It was a really transformative thing for me and in a way it really saved me, because I don’t think that I would’ve discovered therapy and then sobriety and this path of feeling good about myself and feeling like a new person."
And the 35-year-old model admits it is a particularly tough time at the moment because Jack would have been born this week as she confessed she is "still coming to terms with it".
Speaking on The Ellen DeGeneres Show on Monday (08.02.21), she added: "Looking at those pictures now, it seems like so long ago. And also, of course, everything was such a blur. Even thinking back to it now, I am still in therapy about it and I’m still coming to terms with it. I have maternity clothes, and there are things that I bought for my eighth month and my ninth month. So it’s just hard because he would’ve been born this week."
Meanwhile, Chrissy previously admitted she is "full of regret" that she never looked at her baby son's face and she "hurts every day" because she doesn't know what the tot looked like.
She wrote: "He would have been here any day now - if he were like Luna and Miles, I’d probably be holding him as we speak. I am so full of regret that I didn’t look at his face when he was born. I was so scared of seeing him in my nightmares that I forgot about seeing him in my dreams. I hurt every day from that remorse. This month is a rough reminder and to be honest, I thought the worst was over but I guess life and emotions aren’t on any sort of schedule. Love you guys to pieces and am grateful for all your support and love.
"I firmly believe energy and healing travels through the night sky and I feel it, I promise I do. [Heart emoji] and I love you jack. I miss you so so much. (sic)"
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