Amanda Kloots lost her "femininity" while grieving her husband.
Amanda Kloots lost her 'femininity' while grieving
Amanda, 42, lost her spouse Nick Cordero in July 2020 from COVID-related complications and she admitted that she felt she lost part of herself during the grieving process.
Speaking on the 'Oldish' podcast, Amanda - who welcomed son Elvis, now five, with Nick in 2019, explained: "For instance, after a while I didn't feel feminine anymore. Because I didn't have a man that was kissing me, hugging me, telling me I'm pretty. Like, just coming around me in the kitchen and like, you know, grabbing my waist.
"I lost feeling sexy… and then you're a mom on top of that.
"I had to see that, like, grief took that from me, took away that feeling, and I had to go find out how I could figure that out."
And Amanda - who was previously a Radio City Rockette and Broadway dancer - turned to dance to help her.
She said: "I go to this sexy dance heels class every Monday night. Literally, it just made me find sexiness again.
"It made me feel like I was a woman again. And it made me feel okay with, like, touching myself again and looking in the mirror and being like, ‘Oh, yeah, like, I'm hot. I'm cute. Yeah. I got this'. I lost that.
"[I had to learn how to] heal all these different parts. I think that's a common ... you don't realize that that's a part of healing, that you are gonna have to just keep doing these leaps.
"I had to tackle life in so many different directions in order to keep moving forward. It can't just be one thing.”
One year after Nick died, Amanda revealed she had started dating again but admitted it was difficult.
Speaking on 'The Talk', she said: 'I just started dating again and it is so crazy to be dating for the first time. And it’s quite terrifying and really out of your element, and it’s just hard. It is hard.
"It’s all wonderful. It’s wonderful people I’m meeting, and it’s been a great process so far. But I’ll just say it’s very hard without getting into too many details."