“It’s all in your head,” is a popular dismissal women get when they have unique health issues doctors can’t diagnose quickly. It’s not unusual for us to have to visit more than one physician before we come up with what is truly bothering us. But in the case of sexuality, that maxim is actually true.
The Auction
Despite the fact that Sports Illustrated featured a plus-size woman on the cover of its recent Swimsuit Issue, being flat-chested and skinny is still the image most women are presented in fashion ads and by celebrity models. It’s not easy for a voluptuous woman to feel secure in her body image; even Lady Gaga was shamed when she put on weight.
I lived in a blissful world of skinny until I turned thirty. Then my weight increased to the point where I was into plus-size clothes. It was a struggle to find affordable outfits that were tailored and fit well. And it was impossible to find lingerie that would help me feel sexy. Plus-size fashion has improved over the years, but the thing that improved the most in my quest for feeling sexy was my attitude.
They say that your brain is your biggest erogenous zone. When you have confidence in yourself, you can believe it when your lover tells you you are beautiful even when you don’t conform to conventional stereotypes of beauty. It takes time to learn that self-worth is internal, and that only comes with experience and positive feedback. Often in the beginning it takes a leap of faith—and a truly loving partner.
Women are emotional; men are visual. And yet I have discovered that both respond to dressing for pleasure. Having on lacy lingerie, a garter belt and stockings, a higher than usual heel all help to make me feel sexy, as though I’ve wrapped myself up in a fancy package for my man to unwrap. He likes it when I remove my dress and reveal the delights underneath. I relate to the smile on his face, the gleam in his eye and the other clues that tell me he likes what he sees. I’ve stopped obsessing about the fact that I don’t present the same picture as the ones in the lingerie ads. I present a picture to him that tells him I feel sexy, I’m attracted to him and that I’m ready to have fun with him. The response I get is well worth the effort.
The other important element is then forgetting about how I look and letting myself enjoy the experience. We have played with a blindfold, and I think it is one of the most liberating items on the planet. It allows you to just feel, and once you allow yourself to feel and respond, you are free to totally let yourself go. It makes the experience so much more fulfilling.
When I began writing The Auction, I realized that one of the hardest things Jenna, my main female character, had to face was her own feelings of inadequacy. She was with a man who loved her and appreciated how she looked, but he had a hard time making her believe it. He hoped his plan to put her up for auction at their local club would help her see how desirable she was. But it took the beauty of another plus-size woman standing next to her at the auction for her to learn that lesson.
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The Auction:
When David puts his sub Jenna up for auction, they both get more than they bargained for.
Jenna is unhappy that her Dom is putting her up for auction at their club event. But he isn’t exceeding her limits, so she has to do as he says. Watching the other participants offer themselves up and get bought increases Jenna’s confidence and as the evening goes on, she finds beauty in unexpected places.
Watching the scenes after the auction is over definitely excites her and her two Doms for the evening. By the time they have their own scene in the harem room, everyone is so turned on they can’t wait. After an intense experience, Jenna comes to realize that not only have she and her Dom connected in a way they hadn’t before, but they’ve learned a lot about each other that will help keep the fires alive in their relationship well into the future…
Author Bio:
Rose has been an avid reader all her life and pursued that obsession into the publishing business, where she worked in both production and editorial for books and magazines. When her son went off to college, she decided to fulfill another passion and went to culinary school, thinking she would write a cookbook but loving the cooking so much she became a caterer. But her love for books is ever-present and she finally decided it was time to follow her own creative muse and write the kinds of books she enjoys reading. She hopes her readers enjoy them as well.