Britney Spears has apologised to her fans for "pretending like I’ve been OK the past two years".
Britney Spears
The 39-year-old singer, who publicly spoke out in court this week about being "traumatised" and "depressed" under her conservatorship, admitted she tried to come across "in a fun light" on Instagram because she was "embarrassed" to share what has happened to her.
She wrote: "I just want to tell you guys a little secret … I believe as people we all want the fairy tale life and by the way I’ve posted … my life seems to look and be pretty amazing … I think that’s what we all strive for !!!! That was one of my mother’s best traits … no matter how s***** a day was when I was younger … for the sake of me and my siblings she always pretended like everything was ok. I’m bringing this to peoples attention because I don’t want people to think my life is perfect because IT’S DEFINITELY NOT AT ALL … and if you have read anything about me in the news this week … you obviously really know now it’s not !!!! I apologize for pretending like I’ve been ok the past two years … I did it because of my pride and I was embarrassed to share what happened to me … but honestly who doesn’t want to capture their Instagram in a fun light !!!! Believe it or not pretending that I’m ok has actually helped … so I decided to post this quote today because by golly if you’re going through hell … (sic)"
The 'Toxic' hitmaker shared an Albert Einstein quote, which read: "If you want your children to be intelligent, read them fairy tales.
"If you want them to be more intelligent, read them more fairy tales."
Britney also admitted her Instagram persona - in which she regularly posts videos of herself dancing - has helped her to "feel like [she] matters".
She added: "I feel like Instagram has helped me have a cool outlet to share my presence … existence … and to simply feel like I matter despite what I was going through and hey it worked … so I’ve decided to start reading more fairy tales (sic)"
Britney's latest comments come after she claimed her conservatorship is "abusive", and she called for her father Jamie Spears - who has been acting as her conservator to control her personal and business affairs for the last 13 years - to be jailed.
She said: "They have me going to therapy three times a week and to a psychiatrist.
"I truly believe this conservatorship is abusive. I don’t feel like I can live a full life. In the meantime, I want this therapist to come to my home, I’m not willing to go to Westlake ... They set me up by sending me to the most exposed places. I need your help.
"My dad and anyone involved in this conservatorship, including my management … they should be in jail."
Britney also claimed her conservators have made her get an IUD (intrauterine device) as a form of birth control so she cannot currently have children - despite her wanting a baby with boyfriend Sam Asghari.
And she called for her conservatorship to end.
Speaking in a virtual court hearing this week, she said: "I am not happy, I can’t sleep. I’m so angry, it’s insane. And I’m depressed. I am traumatised. I just want my life back.
"I want to end this conservatorship without being evaluated. This conservatorship is doing me way more harm than good. I deserve to have a life, I've worked my whole life. I deserve to have a two to three-year break."
Several stars have spoken out in support of Britney, including her ex Justin Timberlake, Mariah Carey, Khloe Kardashian, Halsey, and Wendy Williams.
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