Jessica Hayes has suffered a miscarriage.
Jessica Hayes has suffered a miscarriage
The former 'Love Island' star - who won the first revamped series of the ITV2 dating show with Max Morley in 2015 - admitted it has been "hard to pretend" that she is OK following a "rough week".
She wrote on Instagram: "Not a pregnancy announcement- TW - misscarriage
I debated posting it feels really strange to open up and feel vulnerable but you know I’m always open and honest with you all and it’s hard to pretend I’m ok as it’s been a rough week .
But I hope that someone going through the same this might help .
I was pregnant and now I’m not .
I spoke about my 1st loss and tbh I didn’t know I would be here again earlier this time but it still feels complete s*** .
It’s not really just losing a pregnancy it’s the plans you make , your vision of what that baby or child might of been like , what your family will look like and it gets taken away in a second .
When your experiencing loss you have to pretend you are ok, wipe your tears and carry on because you have a little one, you cook dinner , you read the stories . You do the school run . Nothing stops .
It was a traumatic day when it happened which I wasnt really expecting at all i tried to keep busy and go about my day went out which was a big mistake ..rushed home panicked after last time (previous haemorrhage) convinced myself it might be happening again, so I was just happy to get out the other side . (sic)"
The 29-year-old star had planned to tell her family and friends about her pregnancy at Easter.
She added: "I saw a heartbeat at the scan we had the next one this week , I planned to tell my family and friends and the children on Easter this weekend in a special way but I started having symptoms and the scan confirmed the baby had no heartbeat anymore .
You see all these things you plan and get excited about are taken away then you need to workout what this next part of your life looks like after.
I guess it’s all you have really thought about and planned for the past months .
Of course life goes on but you never really forget .
How can you ?
Who knows what the future brings..
Although I’m pretty scared and not sure I want to endure going through loss again .
It sucks to say the least.
But I’m hopeful , I have to be .
I know I dream of more children one day I love being a mother so much and I hope I’m lucky and blessed enough to be telling a different story next time .
I feel extremely lucky to have my beautiful son by my side who seems even more of a blessing each day . (sic)"
In November, Jessica revealed she had got engaged.
The star was stunned when her property developer partner, who is known only as Zeb, popped the question in October while they were on a surprise trip to Ibiza.
She told OK! Magazine at the time: "We’d only been together for a year so I wasn’t expecting it. It was a massive surprise.
"We went there on a private jet which was just crazy!
"I asked him to get some videos of me for Instagram so I was just there posing away on the edge of a cliff, and then I turned around and he got down on one knee! I was like, 'Oh my God, are you joking? Are you pranking me? Is this a real ring?'
“I didn’t get emotional at all and then about three days later I started crying when it sank in.”