Lance Bass thought the "universe didn't want" him to have kids.
Lance Bass
The 40-year-old singer and his husband Michael Turchin are currently exploring surrogacy options so they can start a family together, and Lance has now said that after having "gone through seven donors" and hit "a lot of walls", he began to think he was never destined to be a father.
He said: "There's a lot of walls that you hit. I mean we've been working for about a year and a half on creating our family. We've gone through seven donors ... it gets frustrating. And then there's a point where you're like, 'Well maybe the universe doesn't want me to have kids.' I mean, my whole life I've had this dream of starting a family and then you're like, 'Is this just not meant to be?'."
The NSYNC star and his spouse aren't giving up though, and Lance is now sure that kids are "in the cards" for the couple.
He added: "But we're still going through it, I do think it's meant for us. It's in the cards, and I hope within the next ... very soon I can announce something very positive. I'm hoping for 2020."
And Lance also admits the struggle to find a surrogate has brought him and Michael - whom he married in 2014 - closer together.
When asked if the journey has improved his bond with Michael, Lance said: "It has, oh it has. Going through something, especially a huge life moment like that, it does bond you. It just puts you on a different level of relationship. It's beyond being in love with him, you're his partner now. And you're creating this life, so now it's no longer about yourselves, it's no longer about you as a couple, it's about someone else. And that selflessness, I can't wait to feel what that feels like."
The pair are determined to find a surrogate for the first child, but the 'Finding Prince Charming' star says their second will "definitely be an adoption".
Speaking to People Now about adoption, he said: "Yeah, definitely. We love the idea of adoption. I was ... months ago I was like 'Babe, let's just stop, let's just adopt.' But regardless, we will adopt. Our next one, will definitely be an adoption. That's so important."
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