My name is Tanzy and i turned 19 in July. I am about to start my 2nd year of university, although i might be leaving as i'm not enjoying it at all.
I currently live in a student house with 3 mates and my boyfriend/fiance. He's 18.
In November of 2004, I had an abortion. I didn't want to, but my boyfriend didn't feel ready to ahve a baby. As i didn't want a child to be bought up with parents so young, with no mone, I felt i had no choice. It was the hardest thing I have ever done in my life.
Now, I think I am pregnant again. I'm not exactly naturally skinny, but I have gotten fatter, and my trousers are very tight on me now. I haven't had a period for ages (I don't keep track because they were never regular anyway). I have been very tired lately, and a few late mornings/afternoons I have felt like I am about to be sick. Also, I have had weird feeling in the lower part of my stomach, feels like pulsations or something. And i have had pains (dull and sharp) on my sides. MY back has been aching and i have been feeling proper hungry all of the time.
I have noticed in my knickers, some brown discharge that sometimes has little bits in it (sounds disgusting).
90% of me is saying that i am pregnant, and 10% of me is saying don't listen to that 90%. I don't know when i would have concieved - so i don't know how far along i would be.
I'm worried if I am pregnant for a few reasons.
1- I went to a theme park and went on rides that aren't suitable for 'expecting mothers', so the baby could be severly disbaled or disfugured
2- myself and my boyfriend have no money.
3- My parents might help in the long run but i feel i would have let them down. As for my boyfriends parents... they wouldn't talk to him for ages.
4- it would effect where/how we are/will live.
5- my boyfriend doesn't want children yet. I do, although i don't think im 100% ready as we have no money or actual income at the moment.
please help/reassure/guide.
Tanzy
