Thank You Marilyn King !

[Lena]

Another day , another heat wave ................really is terrible out . Just so f*cking hot and humid . The radio is warning people about the heat as if it was a tornado or blizzard since it's dangerous . They tell seniors and people with breathing troubles to stay inside. God advice, the terrible weather is setting off my asthma too. Have been sneezing and coughing alot over the last few days . Karin's been annoyed by the serious crisis of running make-up ...........I should be so lucky .

Had a nice time at the huge flea market yesterday in spite of the heat and humidity . They really had a good crowd too , all kinds of people were there. A busload of seniors,yuppys , whole familys and joggers/bikers. Also a dorky barbershop quartet singing away , what else but ' My Old Kentucky Home " Alot of used furniture and kitchen stuff . One older woman was delited about getting whole set of wedge wood china for a few dollars , this aged yuppy Guy was almost dancing for joy finding this huge old wooden globe from a hundred years ago , and one vendor who as selling old fashioned exercise equipment had a huge crowd around him . He had these giant medicine balls and pins .Some amateur jugglers bought all the pints and right way were talking about painting them changing the color from the bland white paint to bright colors. Moi cam close to buying but old wood frame mirror but held off, happy to say my natural stinginess kicked in ! But left thinking mirrors are neat and collecting them then putting them over one wall of our place wud be a great hobby . After buying some lemonade from the Boy Scouts left and was very happy to get into my car to escape the heat . When the air conditioning came on it felt like a cold shower or dip into the lake ..........

The hotel was so empty it was spooky , hardly any other employees were around when I went in which is strange . No one in the locker room which while at first felt creepy but that feeling passed . Was able to take a long hot shower , the water pressure is the best I have ever seen and the hot water never ever stops . After that got into the black cocktail waitress dress. The employee cafeteria was almost empty and that was weird to since during the day since as bad as the food usually is there's always somebody there from employees to contractors to cops & paramedics . Yesterday it was just me , two of the retarded people who work the laundry , and middle aged cop who was on his cell phone working on his on the side catering business . After eating half the lasagna worked the Concierge Lounge which for awhile was over flowing with people here on some promotional tour . They ate almost everything in site but went soft on the bar .

Later worked a 88 person wedding reception with weird Norm .He really is the lazyest bartender in town , about the only slower bartender I have ever heard of was a this guy a few years ago who died on the job from a stroke and just stood there dead at the bar with folks continuing to make orders . Whoever works with that dork ends up doing most of the work . It gets even more annoying since you have to split the tip 50-50 Nothing about the reception stood out except one guy about 20 who had the disgusting open mouth tattoo one his throat .............

Hilary gave up yesterday and is now for Obama. Even though she lost she should really be proud since she was the fist woman who was a serious candidate for president and did real well. Who knows she may still be his vice president partner . Also see on Google news this morning wearing flip flops may have long term danger . I've been saying that for awhile after getting open sores between my toes. Don't know if anyone is listening since there America's most popular shoe , everyone wears them . Moi even has pair .But for most of the time will stick with going barefoot or my Dr . Scholls.And there telling us not to eat uncooked tomatoes since they may have salmonella . That has my gf upset since she's addicted to tomatoes whether it's cooking with them or snacking on them . Am happy there's never been a salmonella warning about my favorite snack food , alcohol .

Work at the country club later, ho-hum . Another 4 hours of being a grinning idiot for the rich people . At least it's money and easy work . And moi does get a look into another world . Going out in a navy blue v-neck T shirt and jean short shorts . At the country club there uniform of the white blouse, Kelly green jumper dress , nude thigh tops ,and brown flats

[Lena]

My Fate as a Hillbilly.............

Will whine and moan first since I have to pirge then get more cheery talking about our special plans for today .

Life dumped on me yesterday , for the jillionth time being reminded how many don't see hillbillys as being really 100 % human . For awhile I was burning up with anger inside even to the point of throwing ice cubes against the wall at home . But then luckily calmed down after a long shower , some merlot , and Karin .

The first thing and the worst of the two by far was getting a crap job dumped on me at my pt job at the country club . The mexican car hikers didnt show up for the sunday brunch , no one knew why .But somebody had to do the valet parking fro the rich members , heaven forbid they'd have to actually go thru the horror of parking here own cars in the paved lot and then walking the 100 or 150 feet into the country club . Right away I was chosen to be the lucky one to be the valet parker . I hated the idea of doing it yesterday too, if only because it was about 95 degree with what seemed like 95 % humidity too. Also it's a 2 person job but I had to handle it all by myself and that later created some trouble . Really seemed unfair but also fate . They couldn't use the other servers , May Wahs the princes of the place and having her out there slaving away wud have annoyed many members . Someone also could have even said racism at the site of a Asian outside in the terrible weather being worked to the bone . Meghan was saved by having to work a private party after the brunch , cant have your server dripping with sweat and exhausted . So it all fell on the ridge runner ...................

When Dave the dining hall manager told me about being the car hiker I w as shocked .Telling him how I did it once before and once was enough . Then scrambling to find someone else saying maybe they should use a couple for the caddy's . But it didn't work , he was pretty firm about me being the car valet so what could I do ?

Dave wudn't let me stay in the air conditioned inside and wait for members to pull up , instead lucky me had to go out and wait in the god awful heat & humidity . Was able to find pair of sunglasses in the lost & found which were helpful in working under the blazing sun but the server uniform was a pain . A long sleeve blouse, dress, and stockings are NOT made to be worn outside in terrible weather to park cars . It only took a few minutes until my whole body started sweating and it continued the whole shift . I felt like I was as taking a shower from the inside out , soon my whole body and clothes were drenched with sweat . My feet were the worst , they were as soggy as if I had stepped in a puddle .

As the fates wud have it the brunch had a real good turn out , the cars kept pulling in and in . Being the only one working it was hard keeping up so a back-up started with more cars pulling in all the time . My solution was to tell people o just go on in . Most ere happy to do so but someone had to have gone & complained .Dave came out and told me not to let line build up and I told him that wud be hard to do since I was the only one working . Dave got to be a prick telling me to try harder/work faster . I didn't say anything but thought easy for him to say standing there in his blue blazer & khakis whose job it is to just to stand there and smile at the members in air conditioned comfort Moi got to be a human machine who first smiled and made small talk to people pulling in then drove there cars to a spot then walking quickly back ( an sweating more ) to put the keys on the board and park another car . At one point went inside to get a bottle of water and wash my face only to get a dirty look from Dave . Going back out I grabbed a cloth napkin to use to wipe the sweat that was pouring out of my face which seemed to be coming more and more as both the heat got worse and the work load got worse . As I walked by the dining hall saw the very happy and cool looking May Wah and Meghan chit chatting with the members and wished both skanks wud burst in flames ..............

About half way thru the shift things got more intense when I had to both keep on parking cars for people just arriving ad get other cars for the people who had already ate and were leaving . That got confusing , once brought up the wrong car By the end of the had a huge line and was really really scrambling to get he cars up to the front . Like at the hotel when I get swamped with to many orders I go tunnel vision and can only concentrate o keeping up .but at least the hotel is air conditioned so don't have to deal with nasty weather . Of course yesterday I also had to put up with working in Hell.Some members grumbled but since par of being a server and valet parker is being a grinning idiot I kept smiling . The service was bad since I was alone but I was doing my best . By the end of the brunch had to fetch something like 18 cars in a row................

The tips weren't bad but by the end I as soaking wet and exhausted with a terrible head ache . All I wanted to do as get out and go home . . Like the phony and asshole he is Dave came up smiling saying what a god job I did then acted more serious saying he had some constructive criticism about how I should do it the next time . I cut in laffing saying there's not going to be any next time since my car hiker days were thru but then to soften it all up laffed some more then laffed to soften it up.................. In the locker room May Wah was real nice saying how she and Meghan felt bad for me . I said how it sucked but then really wasn't mad at her anymore. Changing clothes and especially getting the drenched stockings off helped cheer me up but I as so wet my shirt & shorts were soon wet too.

The whole experience really grated on me and back home insult was added to inury . Karin told me her dad called saying how he talked to his sister Karin in California who said her idiot daughter Cate whose still here is in trouble again ( living in her car and no job ) but they ( the folks ) can't be bothered since according to mom "If Cate wants to act like a hillbilly that's not my problem " then went on talking about there new sailboat . That really set me off.............after being treated like dirt at work now had to hear what that snotty bitch dis hillbillys as if all of us being trash is some scientific fact . Thats when I started throwing the ice cubes and talking about bitch slapping my gf's auntie till she was silly .................. But Karin calmed me down and got me in the shower ...............Lucky for both of us after sometime in there was calmer /more human .

Later was able to chill sitting around in my robe drinking & watching tv. Was funny to see MSNBC"s prison show look at t the state penitentiary here, it's been the home away from home for many of my male relatives.Including my father and 2 of his brothers and now that puke cousin Gaylord. Didn't watch it long though , we're getting a European movie channel free this month so watched this French movie about a rich woman who ran out on her family but came back trying to make things right .Hated her but loved the clothes and images of Europe .

But that was yesterday and am normal ( or as close to being normal as I can be ) today . Soon we head out to go kayaking and am really looking forward to doing it .Will be the first time out in my new boat thats red and plastic . Can you name kayaks like bigger boats ? If so will call it the the JEZEBAL . Have kayaked before and it's not brain surgery but will listen too and watch Karin since she's been kayaking since she was a little kid .Anchors away .................

In a white one piece swim suit ( maybe the closet I ever get to regaining my purity ) along with jeans cut -offs.

[Lena]

Being out in 95 degree weather parking cars in a long sleeve blouse and dress is BAD

But being out in a bathing suit kayaking down the river in 95 degree weather is GOOD !!!

Yesterday kayaking was so much fun it erased the anger about my slave dutys on sunday . We just had a great time and I feel so fit. Getting the boats on Karin's car was a pain but after that everything went fine . We got down to the landing and after a little difficulty for moi managed to get in the boat and head out on the Ohio river . Loved the glare from the water and sun , it felt so naturey . My gf's been doing this since she was 9 so I followed her lead, she was great . Acted like a old pro , seeing her paddle thru the water with all the self confidence in the world was amazing and also very appealing if you know what I mean ...........

The water is it's own little world , I've lived here now for 15 years and just realized that yesterday . then again I've never had trouble being limited or not caring about anything unless it was right in front of me . Just like you see all kinds of different cars and people on the street it's the same way on the water . In our almost 5 hours at sea passed many different kinds of boats and personality types on board. Most were nice, being on the water is fun for everyone . Like the car bumper sticker says ' a bad day on my boat is still better then a good day at work " .............

We saw rich people on cabin cruisers living the good life , most were nice , waveing and smiling away . . Also a few other kayakers one middle aged white guy was so intense about it he didn't even say hi back after we hollered out a hello but most were friendly . Some canoers too and even these college type guys in a long thin boat Karin says is called a skull that you race. That was news to me , of course growing up in the slums you don't get much exposure to boat racing . Also barges carrying freight , I guess there the 18 wheelers of the river . The crews on them were about the only folks we saw that didn't look all happy and relaxed .Then again there at work so that figures .The state police were out in there own boat too, cops can be very lazy and those guys looked like work was the last thing on there mind . They were laffing and drinking from slurpie cup that them being police you know didn't have any soda in them but probably beer. They waved too, cops being there ultimate horn dogs . Interesting people on shore too, like a few old black guys fishing , some little kids running around and throwing stones into the river, and of all things a fat old man playing the accordion with nobody else around ...........

Moi felt just so fantastic after it all ,had a great upper body work out and mentally all renewed and fresh . I've always noticed how being around or on water makes me feel good . Wud becoming a sailor or maybe better yet a galley wench be the perfect career and key to mental health for me ? Karin felt great too, she said kayaking is addictive . It sure is too, moi will now have to add kayaking to a list that already on it has sex, drugs, alcohol ,and FF We talked about it last nite till we went to bed .Even though we both got sun burned and got sore from the paddling it didn't mater since the kayaking had been so much fun . No surprise even enough we both have to work alter and it's getting cloudy were already talking about going out on the river again later this morning ...............

Not much else to write about .For the first time in my life see how the price of oil is so important and can be bad .This $ 130 a barrel for oil is terrible for the whole economy which sucks . Also bad for anyone who owns a car , with gas prices around $ 4 a gallon it's going to cost me just under $50 to fill my tiny KIA RIO and thats a lot of money to me . Someone should do something but then again don't expect that boob in DC to do anything good..............

Also saw the documentary about the statutory rape case against this director I never heard about before called Roman Polanski who had sex with a 13 year old girl a million years ago and had to run back to Europe to get out of prison . They said he came here from poland which after my disastrous experience with the polish guest workers had me against him from the start . Had even less sympathy since my low life sick mother f*cking b***** cousin Gaylord just got put inside for the same thing which was nothing new .He tryed raping me when I was 14 and actually did knock down and rape another female cousin who was all of 12 at the time .

From what they say on the show the girl was already active and basically given to Polanski by her stage mother mom who hoped Polanski wud make the kid a star . Nasty nasty nasty .And I thought my mom was terrible for letting us start sex at about the same age and then wanting to know all about it . As bad as she was old Rose at least she didn't pimp us to some cho mo movie director. If it were up to me the mom wud be horse whipped, that pervert polanski wud do a few years and pay the victim millions , and no polanski movie could be shown in America again.

Getting on my swimsuit again to head back to the river ! Later work .Dont know what exactly will be wearing but at work the white blouse & Kelly green jumper dress along with nude thigh tops and brown flats and I WON'T be parking cars again !

[Lena]

I may be going into a radical sports phase, just ran 4 miles and for the last 2 days have been out on my kayak . I know such healthy behaviour on my part may surprise many , it's so out of character with my love of drinking for recreation and being a couch potato . The kayaking has rocketed me into a fitness craze , from now on not only Tamachant won't be the only woman athlete here !

Actually taking a longer look it's pretty typical with past behaviour . When I find something good /fun I usually radically throw myself into it. . Within a week of starting sex with guys at 15 went sex crazy .......... along with f*cking my bf at least once a day also went down on cousin Francie , a cute guy at school whose last name I forgot years ago , and with cousin Francie a guy who lived down the street .The same with dope too, did both crack and regular blow for the first time in the same week only thinking baout doing more and more . You could call me fanatic or just eager to learn .............

Kayaking is unbelievable fun even worth all the work it takes to do it . You get a great work out and see so much . And my whole body including mind & soul feels so good being out on the water. We were out for 4 hours yesterday on the Ohio river. saw more barges but not as many cabin cruisers. Also for the first time jet skiers , they zoom all over the place. Looks like fun . On the banks once again some old guys fishing , I don't see the fun but you could tell it's there passion . Noticed to a huge greenish -brown snake slithering thru the mud . Karin was terrified , moi was a little better . I grew up seeing all kinds of them back in the hills . I gave the one we saw the name GAYLORD after my vile creature cousin .

After that we came home and moi went to work at the country club . As I pulled in seing the he place made nasty face recalling having to park cars in the awful heat the other day . Really as a painful memory . Getting dressed in the locker room was strange to the uniform was cleaned and pressed not the soaked with sweat rag I had left sunday afternoon . Dave the dining hall manager just said hello and told me I'd be working a dinner meeting .But the manager who they call the colonel because he is a retired colonel was great .Seeing me he smiled saying 'There's sundays hero " then thanked me and complimented me up and down for working the parking lot all alone . Nice to hear , I'm a sucker for nice words from older father figure types . Then again he couldn't have said anything but if had given me a bonus I wud have been even happier The colonel said the regular car hikers haven't come back , they even have checks waiting . Maybe since he said they had probably been the ones who robbed many cars saturday nite at the summer dinner dance . Including a brand new blu-ray player .I wonder of those guys are watching a movie on it back home in Mexico ?

TT Carlene the pt bartender whose heading to Mount Rushmore in a few weeks with her bf and worked the dining hall with Meghan .Mostly though worked a dinner meeting where they finalized details for the huge 4th of july golf tournament . That should have been easy but ended up being harder then expected . The guys were all jovial ( 2 even recognized moi as the woman who got there cars sunday ) but the boys really drank with one being a positive asshole about how is steak should be prepared , he sent me back with it twice before his holiness was satisfied ............... .

After 2 days of kayaking my arms always seem to want to be moving .It even felt that way last nite when I was in bed . In keeping with my new athlete way of life am going to have a salad for lunch and try not to have the meat dish in the employee cafeteria at the hotel tonite . But do know after getting home will definitely be having some merlot , you can only take sports and eating healthy so far ............

Hot again today in the 90's , in a pink tank top and white mini .At work tonite the penguin suit and black orthies .

[Lena]

Strange morning , cloudy and very very humid .We should be getting big storm later.Moi is debating whether to go run now or wait till the rain starts coming down since running in the rain is so much fun and if I wear a white T shirt get to 'accidentally ' expose myself ...............

I shared too much yesterday , a problem with us bloggers and especially this one . Talk about me having a habit of jumping into new fun things with both feet included a episode of beings ex happy at 15 which maybe I didn't have to get into detail about . Oh well , live and learn . Sex with guys was better for me then most young women since I wasn't stumbling along with a also inexperienced male partner. My first lover boy was 24 with ALOT of experience. I wanted him all the time at the start .That also made me sex happy wanting sex about all the time . Leading directly too me having more sex with my cousin Francie ( who was my first actual lover at 13 and our hobby was sport f*cking with each other for fun and to kill boredom ) along with bedding Micah at school and getting Francie to go in with me to seduce Damian Simms who we both thought as a black god .It was all just so much fun ,even with Damian's auntie catching the 3 f us in the shower . I went sex happy again at 23 hooking up with 6 people in 5 days .Unlike the time at 15 it didn't began on a exciting note , was being so active to escape depression after a nasty break-up but by the time I woke up next to my third partner ( a woman named Lynne who worked at a photocopy place ) started to have just as much fun as back when I was 15.................... Ooops, I've over shared again .

Oh well........................

Don't want to sound fanatic but am eagerly jumping into being more healthy .If I get boring about this like some health & fitness fanatic please post telling me to stop .Those people bore me too. but do feel better mentally & physically . Yesterday at the coffee boutique skipped the usual cookie an at work had a ham and cheese salad instead of the lasagna for dinner . Should I go vegan ?

Nothing big happened yesterday . The coffee boutique has a new manager who nobody seems to like since he 's so just so under motivated .I've noticed that too, he's definitely more the go thru the motions/looking bored type rather then the fast service with a smile type . But he really got on my bad side adding me to the list of detractors after he told me I can't come in or walk around barefoot like I did yesterday and often do . Mentioned some silly health department rules and mumbo jumbo about the places image . I started to say you see other women doing that but after a few words stopped since think that dork is so overall lazy he doesn't have enough energy in him even to listen Work went fine , had cocktail waitress Maureen . The usual group of business travelers ,army people , and Korean business men who really partyed . By the time they left they were very drunk and singing Korean songs ..........

Karin's starting to get replys from graduate schools to be a pharmacist . Also from money sources which is just as important . Who knows we may end up moving which itself to me is not all that bad,wud miss some people around here (NOT including my family ) but wud be nice to see what it's like living some place else. It just all depends on the place, NYC or California YES !!! Detroit or some little town in Kansas NO !!!!!!

Today after running will be a brown tank top and lite greyish green canvas mini . At work the penguin suit and orthies.

[Lena]

Yesterday's post had about 200 hits ...................... I guess the key to more hits is to over share  about my sexual history ?    Have to be careful there, don't want to embarrass anyone involved . Don't know whatever became of either my first real male lover and Micah the guy I sport f*cked for fun at 15 but still am in contact with my cousin Francie of course ( married with 5 kids now living up north ) and Damian whose a marine and married to a woman marine who is very nice and who might beat me up for writing about past fun times with her man ..............

Not much happened yesterday . The same old same old . The heat wave is still here  .The humidity makes it all the worse. Work went fine , had cocktail waitress Bridget and a good crowd in the bar ,   wore the penguin suit & slept with the air conditioning on .Yadda yadda yadda .................. 

 Karin got a call from her idiot and a half cousin Cate who wanted to come by to take a shower and do her wash .Karin also said Cate is staying with a bf ( who she says is 50 with Cate being 19  )  in rented room downtown and they share a bathroom with people in the rooms around them . A big change for Cate who grew up in a nice house in the suburbs going out on her folks cabin cruiser on the river.......... .I don't care if she comes by but do think both of us should be home at the time  and lover boy and her friends can't come over period !!!! . .From experience know you can't trust anyone relative or not like Cate .......... They';ll steal everything you own and trash your place then ask when they come back to do it all over again

Speaking of bad girls have to call my best friend Leslie to see how life as a stay at home mom is going , it's a dream for many women ( and more and more men  I bet    ) but do think it may be hard for Les since she's been a party girl since she was a teen-ager .For Les nites were meant for  drinking & getting high along with sex but NOT watching NICKELODEON or reading to children .  For her being a stay at home mom could be a living hell. Definitely have to find out whats going on .

See the Republicans are going to try to make Michelle Obama a campaign issue .TBH she doesn't look like the nicest person on the planet ,   her dissing of America after it's been so good to her sticks in my throat . But the Republicans are getting downright nasty and racist about her and thats terrible . The first shot came from another Michelle , the far right wing skank Michelle Malkin whose so bad  even got her fired from the right wing Fox news .Even though she's a Asian and I think because of her last name jewish she called Michelle Obama a " baby mom "  like she's some unwed mother living of welfare while her man is out chasing after other women . ....................... Disgusting , can only expect the right wing guys on AM radio like Rush Limbaugh and Michael Savage will  do it too .Some people's heads are so far up there bootys they will never see the lite..............

Friday nite and at work do a private party with another bartender who I hope is Cassady . The only other one wud be weird Norm who as I always write is the slowest and lazyest bartender on planet earth . Also a babbling idiot who can go on and on about nonsense like pyramid power and aliens being the first earthlings .  With Cassady I won't end up doing most of the work . Heading out in one of my new dresses we got at the sale in the back of the no doubt hijacked 18 wheeler trailer in the parking lot It's a retro knee length tea dress with a v-neck front , short sleeves, and nip at the waist thats black with a floral paint that is red and white .Actually looks more like blobs of red then a flower with so many white smears and dots it's like looking at the stars at nite . I like it though and being so classy & traditional looking may take away from my low class personality .......... At work the black cocktail waitress dress , nude garter stockings ,and black flats .

[Lena]

Saturday morning

The radio says the heat wave is ebbing off, today we'll only be in the 80's which after the last few weeks is practically fall weather .It's fine with moi , the 90 plus temperatures and humidity were terrible .

Had fun parading in my new dress yesterday .Was surprising and great to see how nice I looked in the reflection of store windows Even got looks from a few penis people too. Christophe the security at work who I'd love to give a tongue bath too didn't say anything when I came in but was looking me up and down with the lust ooozing off him too. The old Lena wud have found that hard to resist from such a good looking guy and wud have done something like gone down on her knees to smoke his cigar or taken him by the hand to go off and f*ck in a empty banquet room . The new good Lena though had to settle for smiling ...........and peaking to see if his little soldier was at attention

At work felt very special in the black cocktail waitress dress which I wore for the first time this week .Did the Concierge Lounge then for most of the shift a private party with Cassady . It had 200 some people and it seemed most hit the bar and more then once too .As usual Cassady was in new shoes, last nite shiney new gold stilettos . Some shoe store owner must love her with all the money she spends on shoes. I wonder if she also has a pt job or does something like sell dope or sex for pay to support her shoe jones ?

After the reception took over from weird Norm and closed the bar . No surprise the lazyest and slowest bartender on the planet was happy to go home . Lord knows to do what , maybe go to kiddie porn sites on the web or log into this o.nline cult that says space men first settled earth . he said the crowd was stingy with tips but that really wasn't the case . He never got the connection between getting a drink to a customer in no more then a minute or 2 minutes tops with a smile and tips and getting a good tip .Preferring instead to take his own dear sweet time and maybe do something like stand there chatting away with his idiotic new age or conspiracy theory nonsense with the people as if they were old friends or fellow headcases . One man was real happy to see weird Norm book , saying something like 'What is it with that guy , he takes forever ? " I just nodded and smiled ....................

For the second time this week heard anti-hillbilly talk .The first as last sunday when Karin told me how her snobby bitch aunt wrote off her own daughter saying how she's acting like a hillbilly and last nite sat thru cop talk from a bunch of federal police here for training at the base about how hard it is working with hillbilly's .One fat bald police was going on how there no better then the worst big city blacks being so loud , angry and violent . He zipped it up when a black police joined them , he was no better though . The black cop did a mean but I have to say funny imitation of a hillbilly woman who once stormed into his office drunker then skunk wanting her pot grower sons let out of jail howling away like being so loud and over excited wud force the cops into releasing her boys . .The whole bar was in stitches laffing so hard at his imitation , even though I felt like a traitor have to say moi was giggling too . Always have liked hearing funny storys about fools and although I never met the woman he was joking about I definitely know the type .

Then after that 3 guys talked about how hard it is back in the hills to get informers and even people to talk about something bad they saw /knew about .One genius hit on it right of saying people keep quiet about bad stuff since there all related or having been living with each other for centurys . Cops come and go but you still have to live there and & deal with the other people and don't want the trouble of seeing a body you may have helped get in trouble all around that wud be clumsy and also dangerous . Besides the except for the local police the cops were always outsiders with the federal police ALWAYS being yankees too which made them the enemy . Then after a few more drinks they all got into war storys about what fools the 'billy's they locked up were or how rough & tough they got with them ...............including how hillbilly's skulls are so thick you have to hit them more than a few times with your lead flashlight and also how hillbilly's see tazer guns as magic power coming from Satan himself . At least they tipped good....................

Am going to get some-mails out now ..... check in with Leslie and see what life is like as a single & stay at home mom & touch base with cousin Francie up north . Then met Carla and Judy for tennis and lunch .Work at the hotel tonite .

3 outfits for today .........old T shirt and gym shorts with sneakers for tennis , a tank dress after that has a black top and dark brown paisley skirt along with like last nite at work the black cocktail waitress dress , nude garter stockings ,and black flats at work .

[Lena]

Hmmm................ Happy to say in the last 24 hours this here blog has had 325 hits and my other one in the regular blog area has had 525 hits . Good to know your being read .Do I  have a global cult who look on me like some do Camille Paglia or do parents make there kids red it as a waring to stay in school and away from trouble or you'll wind up with a life like this women ?      Saw some wonderful photos of 2 members visit too FF global headquarters . carrotgirl and el kingie make a nice looking couple and FA Sue looks  as smart and nice as she seems on line   And yes as the guardian of this site Judgey wears a super hero outfit to work ...........

Got trounced at tennis yesterday ,losing 5 of 6 sets .But thats no surprise when your as coordinated as a pregnant hippo .   For some reason nobody wants to play doubles  with me .............. Carla & Judy are very patient and I will always be grateful for that .    The usual saturday at work ........wore the black cocktail waitress dress , first did the Concierge Lounge then with Shireen the pt bartender worked a wedding .The only thing about it that stood out from the other about 40 some other weddings moi  does  every year was the mother of the bride and the bride were about the same age being  in there mid 20's . Actually it was the step mother of the bride with the brides daddy  being about 50 .Both bride and step -mom looked like over grown  BARBIE dolls  .Siobhan who was banquet captain overseeing it all and I couldn't tell if the father of the bride ( who was youth obsessed down to the diamiond stud in his left ear ) was more proud of seeing his daughter get married or showing off his so much younger  trophy wife .................   The brides actual mom was a 40 something who seemed a whole more mature then her  ex hubby . By 10:30PM  the reception had dwindled down to a few people so Shireen was able to handle the remaining 30 minutes alone . Moi packed up and was out  door by 11:15 pm ...............

Even after being on my feet since morning for some reason had energy and didn't want to go home right away .The old town seemed lively , brite lites and many people  out for fun  . Deciding where to go was the problem , if I was still single or mated but a cheater like  I was it wud have been so much easyer to find someplace to go and have fun .    .My first thought as heading to the big gay area  called THE TRIANGLE , always fun there and never fail to  run into someone we know there. But soon decided not too. mainly since if there I'll drink and as a alcoholic won't know when to stop . Have to risk getting a drunk driving ticket or arrested or even causing a accident when I finally did leave . Also the whole issue of peace at home came to mind . If I'm down there alone folks will talk and rumors will start and with the way folks exaggerate things & (  )  my history you know the rumors wud be really nasty . After our recent trouble definitely CANNOT  afford any of that either     .Then the idea came to mind of taking a long walk along the Ohio river ,  there's a beautiful park that runs alongside it . Always is so peaceful  oh so quiet at nite with nobody around  . But after a few seconds wrote that off.............. going there wud be asking for trouble .Didn't want to risk running into any serial killer or pervert waiting in the darkness for some woman to come along  . Then gave some passing thought to dropping by some neighborhood bar or even going over to this one hillbilly/clay eater bar where they have the  best C&W juke box in America and cheap drinks . Decided against it too , didn't want to risk running into any of my people and it can get downright depressing being there late on a weekend nite when it's full of single moms from 21 to 50 who are usually lonely and broke with storys about some scum bag penis person who did them wrong . Good lord that could have been so easily been MY life !

So it came down to taking a chance and stopping by a coffee boutique and maybe stumbling in on something interesting or in particular going to our one of our friend Frieda's coffee places. Decided on that , heading to the one she has by the university where I 've worked before. I never went to college ( bet nobody can tell either............. .        ) but areas around schools can be fun . Always something going on week-ends. Driving in right away picked up the  real slower than usual summer feel of the 'hood. Downtown may have been hopping but there around the campus it seemed just so slow and easy going . Probably since most students were gone with only a few going to summer school . As I got into the area saw a few partys going on along with student types  coming and going .Nice though    After I parked a guy complete with a helmet passed me on a skateboard while a pair of young lovers walked by hand in hand happily looking into each other's eyes .

The university area may have been low key but when I got in to my surprise Frieda's place was jumping ! Full of people and not just customers but a actual party was going on .The lites were dimmed , music was playing and there were a bar and buffet table . Moi was so surprised that like a dear in car headlites I just stood there glaring in disbelief . A real lively crowd talking & laffing away too .With most being in there 20's and 30's but with a few as old as 65 or so . A few set of my gaydar too. Just as I was about grab a drink and some munchies and book a even more hectic and stressed looking Freida popped up out of nowhere with tray of canapes saying something like 'god your here , I'll pay you $5 to stay and help with this party " I laffed at first then thinking 'why not ' put my purse in her office and went to work as server/bartender for the next few hours .

Although it was work wasn't as demanding as the hotel or country club or even Frieda's place when I've worked there days or at the poetry slams . The crowd was having so much fun I got off on there vibe often talking and laffing along with them . They were all from a community theater group that had been putting on a play for last 2 days . About everyone seamed obsessed but in a nice way with putting on pays , had everyone there from the actors and director ( the 65 year old lady who I also heard had financed the whole thing ) and crew from the set definer to make -up people .Even the ticket taker , a nerdy looking white guy about 25 with greasy black hair and huge dorky black rimmed glasses but who was having the time of his life. Always like seeing fellow losers happy ! But even more liked the mix and fun both the straight and gay people were all having together .

The last partygoers left around 2:30AM leaving me , Frieda, and for awhile the other server a eastern European girl named Barbara sitting at a table having left over wine and munchies. Poor Frieda, the scheduled two other servers had not shown up ( which she says is alway a problem when dealing with help who are students ) and she'd been left up the creek having to run run run . I know the feeling , get that way when the bar is swamped. So she was right happy to see me walk in ! Makes me feel so appreciated ! But I still joked I have to stay away from the place since whenever I walk in soon wind up working . She thought that was as funny then added she almost forgot to tell me that the two older professors who I talk to there have been nagging her about when the next time I work , they can't recall my name but just call me the barefoot princess since I think have always been barefoot when they've been in . Something against the health code but that moi likes doing and fits in with the beatnick atmosphere Frieda wants for the place. BTW Frieda has jury duty wednesday so guess who opens up and runs the place most of the day ? Happy to say will get paid !

Off to the country club now then we meet friends . In one of the new dresses no doubt hijacked trailer in the parking lot sale Square front , the hem above the knee and is pink with a white floral pattern.At work the uniform of the Kelly green jumper dress, white blouse along with nude garter stockings and brown flats . am being daring , a gstrings today too............

[Lena]

Monday monday ..............the name of a old song they play on the oldies station . Kind of dreary but " monday monday " is stuck in my mind or more to the point what I have left of a mind.............

Sunday was a surprise. Usually at the country club for 4 hours but yesterday the brunch was dead so got to come home after 3 hours.Made sure they agreed to pay me for the 4th hour . Don't know why so few people showed up but that can happen .Maybe it was just to hot for heavy eating ? The brunch ends after next week though then they switch to ala carte dinners.Moi will be working then too but as a bartender .

They even let me leave in their uniform since I'll be back working dinners tuesday . Back home quickly got out oft he uniform and at one point was standing there only in my pink g string , flesh tone garter belt and two nude stockings . I know many of you wud like to believe I did something like walk back and forth past our window facing the street exposing myself to passers-by who stood there on the sidewalk gawking . Or put on a robe but 'forgetting ' to tie the belt and went up to Steve the rail cops pretending to want to borrow a cup of sugar to torment him or if I as really ambitious ( if thats the word for it ) went that way next door trying to get our buppy neighbors Belinda and Baily to try something new ..................... But no no no , as fun as being her could be that was old Lena and now am the new more healthy & sexually conservative Lena so can't do that . All I did in that lingerie worthy of PENTHOUSE magazine was stretch out on the living room couch and m'bate using Karin's pink dildos

After cumming ( and it felt so goooood !!! ) did get out of the garter belt and stockings and into my new pink with a white floral print dress and it felt very cool & airy , really do like it . Moi checked the machine for fun a nd games ., FF was slow and the other site I visit as no fun since for 2 weeks now has been plagued by a intense argument between 2 different groups of dykes about what it mean to be a lesbian .The whole thing is it's getting way too strident and personal , moi is happy she's a pomosexual and has a open mind about sexuality . Not that I am for pedophilia or anything like that but to each their own & can't see why so many people both gay and straight want everyone else to conform to there version of sexuality .

Checked e-mails too. Got a reply from the one I sent cousin Francie last week .Lifes looking up up for her . Happy to say she's lost 30 pounds ( having 5 kids in 6 years turned her into a chub ) on JENNY CRAIG diets and now the all but one of the kids in school she has some time to chill when there gone . Has gotten addicted to a soap called THE GUIDING LIGHT and even gets to take a nap . Some bad news though , one of the Padgett girls Skyler passed .She was only 18 and left a man and 2 kids. Francie mentioning how we both got to hold her when she was a baby which I recall too , real sad .This is the second time this year I've heard of someone back home I knew dying young and it really can get you depressed . No e-mail from Leslie about the new life as a single and stay at home mom . Maybe she's to busy doing all the single mom stuff ? Especially since her son Grady was in a alot of programs which take up the time . OR tbh Les is too busy using her cunning skills to both take care of her kid but also carry on her never ending and action packed sex life ? I can ee it now 'took Grady to T-ball then after went with the team and there parents for ice cream then when Grady took a nap had phone sex with a old john "


We didn't do much last nite since Karin's monthly bill came early . Her low life couisn the insane Cate called to say she'll be by to do wash this week .Oh lucky us ..................... Karin says Cate was royally po'd about our rule she can't bring over any friends to do there wash too or party with when she does her laundry . Let those people go to the laundry mat like I did for years and we don't want our wonderful little home full of people like I used to be and to have things stolen . Watched a funny movie called COYOTE UGLY about a woman who wants to be a singer but survives by being a bartender .Was funny and full of fantasy ...............no bar owner wud let people dance on the bar like they did all the time in that movie or run cops out like they did in it too.but still fun . Saw the news too, alot of info on the floods in the mid west which is just next door .They say so much farmland has been hit food prices will skyrocket this summer .Hope not but since I mainly eat at work for free it won't affect us that bad .

My day of of course and am looking forward to some fun . We're going on kayaking again , this time swinging by downtown and the big rock . Maybe even try going topless to even out my tan .After that going to see Lonnie's softball team play , she;'s such a jockette that she's always the star of any team she plays on . Her partner Cindy will be along with baby Jasmine .

Today in Karin's old yellow bikini then.later a purple tank top and jeam short shorts .

[Lena]

Sore but feeling good this morning . A nice morning too, clear skys and it's not going to be hot & humid today .

We made it out kayaking yesterday and it was great . This was my 3rd time on my new boat and am already feeling like a professional . We paddled off downtown , even went right by the BELLE OF LOUSVILLE old fashioned riverboat and under the big bride .Got caught in some rain but it passed quickly and in it's own way added to the fun . Although am being maybe a little stupid here since being out on the water made us targets for lighting . Yes I did go topless for about 10 minutes to the joy of some guys on a few barges . Karin told me I'm shameless ( too true but opens the door for alot of fun ) and will get arrested for indecent exposure but moi was too happy to care enjoying the cat calls and excited responses ( like "Hey baby come along side and blow me " ) from the penis people I had excited ................... Since it was cloudy out when I did it don't think it helped even out my tan so guess I will have to do it again .....................


The feeling of kayaking is wonderful and I don't mean just the aroused reactions to the site of topless moi from sailors . As I always say being on or even near the water makes me feel wonderful , so at ease but also confident . You also get a great upper body work out and it's fantastic seeing things on both the river and on shore . Once again including but going beyond men who want you but also other boats ( and like yesterday a used condom and car tire floating by ) and the people doing all sorts of things .

Came home and showered then went to see the softball game bringing a long some water and fruit since we had both worked up quite a appetite and hadn't had dinner . It's a gay league , the team has a new name now but is descended from our old team SATAN'S BITCHES .Mostly new women but a few old faces from our time like Lonnie along with Clarice and Claire. Like our team 3 years ago Lonnie is still the star being such a natural born athlete , she 's a great pitcher and batter .Her partner Cindy as there with baby Jasmine who keeps getting longer and heavyer .Karin and I along with a few other 4 women all took turns holding her . At one point do believe more people were paying attention to the baby then game . Haflway thru the 4th inning (9 innings total in a baseball game ) Cindy got a call from work and had to rush off to her car while still on the phone and break out her laptop leaving baby Jasmine with us .

That was nice , I never wanted to be a mom or liked babys much till we started watching Ying Ying and it all started to change . Now I can get positively sentimental and gooey around babys . Loved looking down at bay Jasmine and seeing her eyes twinkling and her smiling . At one point was even singing talking to her and singing to her too, things I'm sure my own mother never did with me and can't recall seeing my sisters do with there babys . Did however get complicated when I had to change Jasmine , nasty business. The definite downside of motherhood . After finishing handed her off to very willing Karin to go wash my hands . When I came back a slightly ansy Karin ( whose a neatness freak )looked a little off, Jasmine hadn't finished and while I was as gone she had to be changed again . Karin was in a rush now to go wash her hands . I took over gain , also learned another reason why it takes 2 people to raise a baby .

At the end of the 9th inning a slightly embarrassed Cindy returned thanking us for watching the baby while she was on the phone with her boss.We told her it was OK and we were going to kidnap baby Jasmine for our own . Lonnie's team won the game and we all went over to the sidelines to se her . The first thing Lonnie did was hold the baby and kiss her . After that our friends went home which we understood ( tomorrow being a work day and most of all since they had to put baby Jasmine to bed ) while the team & fans went to bar for beer and pizza. We tagged along , nice to talk to Clarice again .She's a ex of a ex friend named Janet ( don't ask why we're not friends anymore, it's a secret ) and was always real sociable . Met another nice couple too , Abby and Naomi who are yankees from across the river in Indiana .

Karin's cousin Cate is coming over later this morning to do her wash ,will be real fun ( ) putting up with her selfishness and whining / anger and am sure she will hit us up for money . Am running soon .Work later at the country club and heading out the door in white T shirt and jean mini . At work the cheery server uniform of the white blouse and Kelly green jumper dress with nude thigh tops and brown flats .

[Lena]

A pink t shirt and army style short short shorts today . At work the penguin suit, nude knee highs , and orthies

Nice surprise today , got up early to go work at Freida's coffee place but then saw message from her saying I didn't have to come in . Frieda thought she had jury duty today but it's actually tomorrow so moi got to go back to sleep . Life's little pleasures can be the best .

Yesterday was busy and intense. So much went on it seems like sunday was a year ago rather then just a few days ago ............ Part of it,namely dealing with her younger cousin Cate really nuked Karin too. She's sleeping soundly now , I bet a atom bomb could go off outside and she wudn't get woken up .

Much in the news ............California is allowing same sex marriage and in the last 24 hours we've heard about 2 local gay couples who are planning to head there to tie the knot . All the right wing religious fanatics around here are howling about how this is evil but then again who cares what they say . Strange too how they get so upset about people in love just wanting to get married but usually also all think little georgy's war in Iraq with all it's needless death & destruction was a good idea ............... Big floods too just up north from us , the TV says a huge flood and mountain of debris is headed for St .Louis which is a big city maybe making it another New Orleans .TV news is full of amazing video of houses and buildings under water and things like trailers and cars flowing down rivers .

Worked at the country club last nite with the other sever being Meghan and it turned out to be a wild ride. Sundays brunch was dead , hardly anyone showed up . But last nites dinner was packed , we ran non-stop trying to keep up handling the always full or near full dining room between just the 2 of us . They even thought if calling the servers who work days to come in and outfitting the high school girl who works the pro shop in that happy waitress uniform and putting her on the floor . Despite being overworked the time went by fast and Meghan and I made good money . Usually after working shift like that I stay for a drink and to calm down but like Meghan last nite all I w anted to do was get away and go home !

The big thing yesterday was the visit of my gf's 19 year old cousin Cate to do her wash or as I say in my native hillbilly 'worsh '' Monday was just so nice for both of us ( and like I wrote NOT just because moi got cat calls and leers from sailors by going topless when kayaking ) but Cates visit was a real downer yesterday .She really is headed to a early grave or a life as a homeless wino Karin's really upset about it , sad for Cate and feeling very frustrated about what to do .Moi understands thsoe feelings but am also disgusted with Cate since considering how she came up in a nice suburb she really is a colossal fool to be this way and about as likeable as a water moccasin ..............

Anyway her folks who washed there hands of her years ago now stay to Los Angeles and Cate's here not doing much of anything except going from guy to guy . We didnt know how bad it was till yesterday . She showed up smelling and in dirty clothes with two garbage bags of dirty clothes that stunk to high heaven .Looked tired and puffy too .As usual acted bored/depressed but at times also VERY hostile . Karin was real nice but Cate was demanding along with whiney /bitchey .To Karin's horror put her feet on the coffee table when eating and while they were raised with manners talked away while eating and seemed to love belching with about every 3rd word being a swear word too .

But acting like oaf was bad the real bad stuff came later . Cate says she has no job or home but moves from friend to friend on the West End where moi is from . Also hasn't had a real meal since she didn't know when and survives on soda and candy . Talked alot about her bf whose a black guy who stays with his mom in the projects ( gang country ) and this second bf whose a Mexican about 35-40 named Luis whose acting like a sugar daddy promising her everything ...................Then a huge diatribe against her family , her folks are total assholes but can't see them torturing her like claimed or letting her own step brother rape her when she was 13 like she claims . Then it got into how Cate is such a gangsta ..............all this talk about how she runs with dealers and had seen gun fights . No one better mess with her at least according to Cate ........... :roll

It got worse though . Some real stupid as talk about blacks ......listening to her every black person is some yahoo like her into gangsta rap and believing in nothing but fun /getting there way here and now . Good lord thats a white racist dream ! Gave some thought of telling her about the millions of other blacks who aren't like the peole she likes I but didn't , whats the use that fool is lost in her own nonsense . Then Cate proudly said how she uses the famous N word alot but says 'nigga ' which is cool with her black friends ...............do know saying that is common among blacks but for anyone else it's not cool . Doing that you'd lose friends and maybe your front teeth .Also how she's into H & crack , can't get enough . Then she started saying how Karin's family says Karin is so wild and crazy for being gay but looking at us were just boring honkies. Karin was hurt by hearing some may see her as crazy and I went over to hug her. Cate just stared then went over to raid our fridge ...............


Moi had to get to work and as I left saw Cate on the couch eating our food and arguing with Karin about turning up the volume on the tv real loud to hear music ( am sure our neighbors wud love that ! ) and Karin looking hurt and stressed.

TT Karin later who said Cate finally left at 10 PM going who knows where but at least away from our home ! We talked about how sad Karin is her people see her as wild & insane . Moi bent over backwards to sooth her, after all she is my gf and that comes with the job and I do know how she can be so way to prone to take criticism personally . My basic point was that Cate is a fool and dope fiemd and you can never believe what those people say about anything . And as I thought all she said was 'everyone ' in there in the family is down on Karin but she didnt mention any specific names which has me even more doubting the truth of what Cate said . Then added with Cate being so nuts and her folks being such phonys and assholes who are they to judge anyone else? Karin got better right away then switched to worrying about Cate . She's right too, that stupid girl is committing slow suicide .Don't think there's anything we can do since from experience know things only change when you decide too make them better and Cate has her head so far up her booty thats not possible now . Lena , boring honkie or the school of hard knocks shrink ?
:lo

Off to run then the coffee boutique then work.

[Lena]

FF was more fun then usual yesterday . I see my two blogs have now gone over 240,000 hits which may make me the most popular unpaid bloggers on the 'net and my extemporaneous ' " I'm Going To masturbate Am happy to have made so many so happy.................

I actually did pleasure myself too. Just laid back in the couch and unzipped my shorts and went at it doing the erotic things I mentioned too. of course it's not the first time I have m'bated here in front of this machine visiting FF-land ................ One with Mandy I was panting away with one hand on the keyboard and another holding the pink dildos . Mandy and I used to a have a global following doing that together in the old cr. What a website !! You can guy all kinds of products , read about celebritys , read interesting posts ,and see o.nline sex shows ............. BTW I'm wearing the undies Mandy sent me .................

No surprise the experience gave me a boost all day yesterday .Is o.nline exhibitionism the key to happyness ? For me definitely is !!!! Smiling as I thought about it all went to the coffee boutique, there really taking over here.The US American economy may be tanking but the coffee boutique business is booming .Several chains and all sorts of local places .You see them everywhere .


Karin's still upset about her goofy younger cousin Cate who seems headed to being a convict , wino or even early grave . I understand how she's so upset , I've been that way about my sisters and niece.It reall