genekelly wrote:I read this, but I just don't get it!
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by Lena on Fri Apr 25, 2008 2:15 pm
Time does fly but know millions of people are happy there week-end is here.Enjoy them while you have them , with globalization don't know if there going to be around much longer .
. Agatha is content to most of the time stay indoors,no doupt enjoying the time away from alpha male and attention hound Fritz.
Anyway Karin likes midnites since there's no suits around and you can do your job without someone looking over your shoulder and the attneding Doc now is a woman about 35 who everyone likes unlike Doctor Gunga Din who they all hated since he treated staff like dirt .. She also jokes she's perfecting her spainish by talking to the all Mexican nite clean-up crew and doing the interpretting when Mexicans come into the e-room .
.Got a very strange look from Cassady in the locker room when she saw me standing there only in the boys underwear too Also wore the penguin suit which was a real contrt with cocktail waitress Narla who has a great body there in the sexxy black cocktail waitress dress.Hey it takes all kinds ........... We were real busy in the bar too with 3 rushes .Am happy to say am still feeling more confident. I never want to go thru hell like that again but it really left me a better person .
. At work the penguin suit and orthies .by Lena on Sat Apr 26, 2008 2:14 pm
by Lena on Sun Apr 27, 2008 3:23 pm
It is a great feeing to know people all over the planet take time to read my posts , makes me feel so wanted ! Better to feel wanted this way then why I was wanted at times in the past .Like when I worked at BURGER KING when in high school and the fat pimple face 19 year old foreman ( we called him Crater face and Ed Acne behind his back ) wud laff at how much he liked having me work there so he could have moi clean the bathrooms and when I was 13 guys some I didn't even know started showing up at my mom's since my nickname at school was 'BJ' .................guess why? 
.But thinking about it do understand why someone who needs thorazine or a loved one of someone who does wud be hurt .So now no more wearing it into work and will go the extra distance and not wear it outside unless covered by something else 
But after 10 years don't care anymore and TBH have heard about everyhting . Usually when somebody has a story will pretend to listen while smiling & nodding my head .Unless ofcourse the jibber jabber is about moi ..........................
Am now giving some thought to asking some of my female friends at work to all one day come in wearing jeans or sweats with there hair tied back too to cause more trouble ................
Then he had a call and left .
Wearing the black cocktail waitress wud have appealed to lipsticks and men alike . Especailly if knowing all there was under the dress was only a garter belt & 2 stockings and ofcourse my warm moist pussea.................
by Lena on Mon Apr 28, 2008 1:46 pm
Am going to get my hair cut and we go shopping then meet friends for dinner.Should be fun , the best times are the simplest times .Maybe thats some big law of the universe , after all that impressionist art all the rich people like is after all pretty simple , usually just paintings of the country or houses. Also furniture, a dyke we know this very smart and cool gay guy who sells and knows alot about it says there's always a huge demand for basic but very classy in it's own way furniture called Mission furniture and Shaker furniture .Come to think of it I'm pretty simple so why am I not a big movie star or the most popular person in town ?
rRally did get soaked but it didn't matter since I loved catching up with Les and being offbeat is always a hoot .I see I missed our 10 year high school class reunion which was allright , life goes on and I still see most of my good friends from those days anyway . Les said this nerdy black guy who always got picked on is now a big shot with FEDERAL EXPRESS and single . No surprise he had all these black girls who were popular back then and wud mock him bad and some white girls who I remember saw him more as a dork were all chasing him around . As a fellow reject I applaud him .........am sure if Karin and I had broken up and I 'd known about the reunion I wud also have ben chasing after him and his bank ............. Sad but not surprising to hear how people we knew are in prison , have been in prison , and are welfare moms.But thats the way it's always been there , things like being locked up and babys were already happening back in high school, even middle school . Les too says this one guy Ronnie Colfax who looked something like 50cent and dated one of my sisters is dead , according to a neighbor of his mom Ron was shot down in Kanas City a few years back .No doupt over something totally stupid.....................
He and his younger brother Steve who I partyed with a few times years ago ( I never f*cked him but do remember giving him face and letting him eat me out ) always claimed to be related to some old baseball player and both now work at Fords which is great money . From what Les says like the baseball player relative he may or may not have had Greg hit several home runs that nite ................ One in particular Les joked that done knocked her out of the ballpark
Another customer offered to drive us home which was real nice but we said no . Instead with our warm coffees went back out into the rain and walked home without a care in the world.............. Like I wrote above the simple things are the best times.............
by Lena on Tue Apr 29, 2008 12:52 pm
Not much to say today except life is normal and I love it . Sad to see Karin looking so tired and worryed since the law suit is really under her skin but am doing everything I can think of to help . She says me just me me is what does the most which practicallyahad me crying and she got a big hug and kiss for that . It's a terrible thing to know people are after you in any kind of way .I keep telling her the hospital lawyer says there really after the hospital and Doc and my friend Bob's gf whose a lawyer says these things almost always get settled before ever getting to the court . Karin understands at least intellectully but not inside then goes back to being upset. Moi has her work cut out for her , never thought I'd have to be the strong one in any relationship especially this one . Since Karin is so way ahead of moi because she's gone to college , is a nurse, and is so responsible about everything .Am glad to help ( it's part of my job as her spouse ) and do hope I will be able to do the right thing .
Also made a fire with our last plastic fire log and some wood logs I found in the garage . The fire gave the apartment a warm feeling and the burning wood smelled great .We ( or in hilbilly 'usn ' talked and watched tv .HBO is showing this last season of the SOPRANOS again and we saw 2 shows .Seeing 'em again you can really tell what the producers were trying to do and it comes back to you just how good the show was .Then saw on CN about the tornados next door to Virginia .Really was something , they just sort of came out of nowhere and then hit destroying all sorts of places.Karin dozed off so moi had to clean up the dishes then turn off all the lites & check the doors.Made me feel so responsible ................
They may not be as cute & cuddley looking as some animals but still are very interesting to observe .
.That mothergrabber even asked for my engagement ring back to give to his new fiance, some Phillpino girl he met over there. I still have it , he's a bad memory but always did like the ring .
! Taw was 24 and seemed so ultra cool with Kawasaki motorcycle and having his own place , this cozy apartment above a garage surrounded by huge trees on one of the few still brick streets here . I'd first been there when my auntie Lurleen had been living with him there .I was amazed and felt so cool and smarter then my years being there hanging around with them If somebody had told me I'd soon be moving in taking over the apartment and Taw I wud have been thrilled to death at the idea but thought it being too fairy tale like to believe . Hee hee, I was wrong .Taw and auntie Lurleen were a nice looking couple and from what both said was great in bed together but on there feet they sure had there troubles or as they say in divorce court here 'irreconcilable differences ' leading to some pretty hellacious screaming matches and fights that in some cases having one or the other try to get he other arrested for assault .
Shame on me for stealing my auntie's man and I definitely wudn't do it today even if I was single but back then I was different .As they say alls fair in love and war and for me that included landing a older guy . I think it may have been 30 minutes after seing each other at the usd cd store we were in bed .My first actual time with a guy too , had been with girls and done about everything else with a man but intercourse and Anal .Moi was so proud and lucky since it was with a older more experienced guy who knew what he was doing . I was walking on air.At first I thought we'd just be f*ck buddys but then we started hanging aroud together and in 2 weeks I'd moved in .Really did feel like a grown up or even sophisticated woman of the world . Having a older bf was the ultimate status symbol with the other kids. You could just feel how impressed and jealous they were seeing him on his bike drop me off at school in the morning . Also felt so wonderful when we'd run into people from school at the mall or movies. Loved the sex and playing around at his place too. Also the privacy & quiet which were all new to moi ,was like heaven getting out of my mom's small 3 bedroom house that at any time had 10 people living in it who all seemed to be noisey .
The attraction was that he wasn't bad looking and fun to be with . Steve was real smart and funny .AND no danger of committment at all because of our differnet situations in life . At one party in the kitchen we started off joking about the high school with him bringing up a funny story about his older brother Greg told him about us being in detention together . To piss off the principal's secretary who most of the blacks thought was a racist we started to flirt then kiss ( Greg being black ) then when she hollared at us to stop pretended to be all upset with me saying I was pregnant by Greg to wind her up some more .It seemed so funny at the time but now like about everything I did like that it was real immature. Anyway Steve and I clicked and had fun talking and dancing all nite . Later ending up on the couch making out pasionately then siting there cuddled up with my legs across his lap . It suddenly came to both of us to take it all a level further and we found a closet ( both bedroms were in sue , one with a couple going at it and the other being sued as the dope room ) and in the closet moi first got on her knees to suck his gizmo then after finishing ( loved it when he came in my mouth !!! ) I undid my pants and he ate me out, he was so good at doing that I even looked up a new word to use to describe it, devoured .No doupt about it, Steve devoured me as if I was the Thanksgiving turkey !! . At another party we skipped the talking and went right away to making out then ofcourse heading to another closet to engage in more oral fun .................
Including arguing and violence on both sides .
. And am proud to say I did with this relationship being full of so much wonderfulness that I always apprecciated but now do even more after the trouble .
No jockey shorts and pants today ............. Being very femme in a light brown almost tan suade jumper dress with a gold chain as a decorative belt from THE MARILYN KING COLLECTION . Also a white turtleneck with white bikini briefs, a white garter belt , and nude stockings . It feels very nice in these clothes too, as rude crude as I can be wasn't cut out to be a butch .Later the brown boots too since soon it'll be too warm to wear them .Work at the country club again tonite so will be in there uniform of a white blosue and Kelly green jumper dress.by Lena on Wed Apr 30, 2008 1:05 pm
Then again thats not surprising since I have always been so caught up in myself other peoples lives and world events never concerned me I'm a hopeless narcisisst as more then one shrink or counselor has said in the past
The town will be tsunamied with tourists wanting to see the race and be part of the huge party the whole town becomes .It's a guarenteed money maker for everyone in tourism and the hospitality business .People from T shirt sellers to restaurents can't keep up with demand . Hookers too , from your average street walker to the high priced girls . Even moi always does real good tip wise since the hotel is packed and the people are definitley in a partying mood
. No surprise have heard it a lead to a spike in babys, have heard the number of births shoots up in the following January . Some director could make a great movie about the week-end since it has about everything from all those imporatant / famous people to sex along with tragedy ( some lose there shirts g.ambling picking the wrong horse to win ) , sex and more sex , and even international intrigue
Flowers galore too and great local entertainement , 2 years ago they hit the jack popot with a gospel quartet ofmen in there 60's -70's from a black church thats ang old traditonal songs that had the packed lobby as quiet as a graveyard as everyone listened to those men sing .
) whose now a senator .A young Kennedy too who some type of congressman or senator back east too. Acors like Jennifer Aniston , John Lithgow, Ving Rhames , and the 10,000 year old Ernest Borgnine and his much younger wife whose always on one of the shopping channels . Last year we had the president of some little country that was once part of Russia , the federal police guarding him gave the guy the nickname of of BORAT after the crazy Russian guy in the movie of the same name . That country must not pay him much since the presidnet stayed in a regualr guest room not a suite or mini suite .Some prince form one of those arab oil countrys too.He had several suites and almost a whole floor for his entourage that included several of his wives and kids. My friends in security told me later he and several of the men from the group all partyed down with some high class call girls from Atlanta . Don't know if one of them was the woman who New York governor Elliot Spitzer was paying $5,000 a hour to bang
Some of the Mexicans in Housekeeping looked to be real impressed or even scared by Senor Muey El Grando Assholeo, guess coming from down there they know his type too well . One Mex did laff with the rest of us though when the MOD told the generalissimo or whatever he was called that he had to wait in line like everyone else to get in the restaurent .That dick just assumed he could automatically go to the head of the line . His assholyness didn't like that much and agrily spewed out alot in spainish that I guessed had to be pretty nasty . But then swallowed his pride and with the muchachos went back to the back of the line . Fate stepped in to make it even worse for el fatheado , he was stuck behind a group of some of those really loud and hyper New Yorkers . I think thats a more gruesome experience then even having your fingernails pulled like they do back in his country . Three cheers for the USA , a country with liberty and justice for all and where even south American dictators have to wait in line with the little people ! Later that nite Captain Tom the head of security joked with the maitre'd that he better not go to that jerk's country on vacation or he'll probably be put up against a wall and shot .................too true !!! The two of them and the MOD who was from Brazil joked that come the next coup or revoution the pushy jerk wud probably be working in dishroom or cleaing toilets at the hotel .................
. Last year we had this sinister loking huge fat guy complete with a Panama hat who set my alarm bells off and no surprise not long after the G-men showed up wanting information about him . Was so proud of myself , another good lesson from coming up in the slums where you develop a ability to spot low lifes. I've worked room service too for the extra money . You really some interesting things doing that !!! As I pushed the tray down the hall saw one naked woman run across the hall giggling to another room soon flowed by another naked room running across the hall to the room the other naked lady came out of . Swinging swappers no doupt !! As I have writen more then once here took a order to a huge party going on in Ike Turner's suite .Finding myself there in the middle of a party where Ike's black R&B gang and the C&W star Travis Tritt with his white country guys were all having fun . And it wasn't just because of the pot that filled the air or liqour, or store bought women up there . Really saw how they all were drawn together by music which was pretty cool .Errr ,mois had other special fun . The first year I was a bartender instead of a cocktail waitress the huge mob of people drove me insane .I even had nightmares of all these faces shoving glasses at me hollaring out for drinks . So even though I was living with a guy to blow off steam did both coke and my lesbian boss all nite , I can't get into it but we got very very wild even for women like us . 
. Did go back on the floor the next day very refreshed though .................. Also a few years later made a $300 mistake on the machine and to keep my job had to blow the then general manager. Some thought it was degrading but you do what you have to do to keep the money coming in and TBH I enjoyed it it .Nice to be so close to power and with his penis in my mouth you have to admit that was being really really close
At the hotel since I want to look as nice as possible the black cocktail waitress dress and black flats .by Lena on Thu May 01, 2008 1:03 pm
Along with the stares ( which I do admit I enjoyed since any attention is good attention ) in the locker room for being in the boys jockey shirts from including Cassady , a few of the Barbie dolls from the front desk , and ( am a little embarressed about this ) nice old Mrs. Tyson who works in uniforms .That set the stage for yesterday when I came in wearing the classic clothes from THE MARILYN KING COLLECTION .One of the securitys was shocked seeing me look so radically different in just a few days . Captain Tom the actual head of security came out and put his arm around me saying " Now this is more like it , you look so nice dressed this way " then went on to say like he ALWAYS does seeing me in the clothes from the MARILYN KING COLLECTION how it reminds him of the way the girls looked back when hew as in high school a million years ago . As boring as that can get do know he means well. As we talked one of the front desk girls came by and not so discreetly glared at me since I looked so different from what she expected to see. Maybe next week will go a few steps further and come in wearing something like a gown or WONDERWOMAN outfit..............
. One huge fat bald guy about 60 thought I was faking , talking that way for fun but moi told him straight up but with a smile on my face that I wasn't faking since this here is the way I talk . The whole bunch of 'em were taken aback by that worrying they'd insulted me but I just went on saying how I can't fake the way I talk but did say ( here since I am as flat as a board) if I was ever to try faking anything it wud be having falsies to look like I have real brests . A few of the women gave me pained looks understanding brest issues but most of those yankees really laffed at that one ............lucky for me they also left a good tip . The fat old guy who thought I was acting also gave me a extra $5 telling me I was great girl ..........
. At the top are some big society events , some where rich people raise money for chairty and even a big black event that started during segregation that still goes on . All sorts of famous black people show up for it every year .In the past have been Oprah Winfrey , Bill Cosby , and Diana Ross. Corporate events too, caterers make a fortune this time of year .Everyday people to have partys at home , some times making it fancy but considering how informal we all are here mostly a real relaxed event . Women wearing fancy hats is a derby is tradition and I heard how some wise acres ina fratenity over to UL had a party where the guys wore womens hats .A friend worked a party in a well off suburb where some of the guests came with paper mache horse heads on too. You can pretty much count on the tv in every bar in town & the whole Kentuckiana area having the race on . In my younger years saw it at both real low end black and 'billy places with everyone all excited more often then not since they had money on the horses.
Can get a little out of hand at times , last year a group of these California surfer types had what they called a beach party in the pool area. No one tryed . but there was a big crisis when they made a bonfire on the outside deck .Had the fire engines and police rushing over thinking the whole hotel was burning down .One security who was huge tough talker got so scared thinking we'd all be burnt alive that he ran home .No surprise they fired Mr. Blood & Guts the very same day . Have seen all sorts of pick-ups at the partys I have worked and also in the bar . Do know for a fact that for even most church going -rock solid middle class people the combination of a fun event & alcohol leads to sin !!!!!! Which ofcourse we all know that we need in our lives .
One year in the bar myself saw bar this bug - cute all-American female reporter from local tv station here to do a corny report about 90 year olds having a good time at the derby ( I think she specialized in those corny storys doing stuff like people's 50th wedding aniverserys or little girls dance recital ) hook up with some very sleazy looking guy in a track suit . He had a shaved head , hadn't shaved in a few days and had this attitude that screamed out ' angry & selfish prick ' and was smoking this huge obnoxious cigar . Guess she either wasn't as wholesome as she sold herself as being OR after pushing cornyness so much wanted to just get nasty with a nasty looking character . 3 years ago my friend Derrick in security got a call about a woman screaming in a guest room and when they went in found her nekkid tyed to the shower head being whipped by this man but she was all upset she and lover boy had been interrupted during there BDSM time . Derrick left but said he politely asked them to tone down the screaming and her yelling out commands like "Hit me again you motherf*cking c#cksucking bast*rd " since the people in rooms nearby wanted to sleep ....................... You have to admit it wud be hard to sleep hearing a whipping ...............
The uniform is made up of a white nehru shirt and red bow tie with a gold vest and black faux leather mini .Bet if I wore it outside wud soon be arrested for suspicion of being a coyote or have some marryed guy from the suburbs pull over in his SUV and ask how much ...............
by Lena on Fri May 02, 2008 2:36 pm
It's hard to believe my writings are so popular About the only other time so many strangers were interested in me was back in middle school when all those older guys came around , am not exactly sure why but do believe it had something to do with the nickame BJ they gave me . All I do is take evey day life and describe it and am happy so many of you check it out and THANX .
) to a rich people's church rummage sale then after that adventure in the land of the well off and educated with there Mercedes SUVs headed over to one of my favorite thrift shops in a run down neighborhood that maybe only 30 minutes but really a whole universe away fom posh Douglass Hills . Then to work where I plunged into the madness of the derby week .No surprise by the time I got home at 2 AM was dead tired ( or in hillbilly ' dead tard ' ) only wanting to have a few drinks and sleep . As luck wud have it really terrible movie I've wanted to see was on , GIGLI with JLo but had to pass since I was so sleepy . From the few minutes of it I saw it lived up to it's reputation as one of the worst movies ever made but there fun to laff at .
.Like seeing the black bellman at work carrying white guests bags that amounted to a cliche .........
Didn't do as well as at the temple sale where I picked up the MARILYN KING COLLECTION but still got a pair of tan & red gum shoes to replace the pair I lost , a 40's style tan double brested jacket with wide lapels that will go good with a black pleated mini I already have and this very very and even more very nice long navy blue wool winter coat . Goes below my knees and has this round collar that actually can stand up to keep your ears & neck warm.All for just $15. I'll probably never live in a place like that or be one the people who go to that church but it's always fun being there.Moi always likes seeing different things and in particualr was nice to see where life is so nice . Raally wass like taking a happyness pill.
They do try keeping the thrift shop looking good though , it may have a musty smell but the big window in front works against the place feeling dingy. The clothes too get washed in these huge industrial washing machines you can hear in the back . Maybe not be classy stores like DILLARDS and MACYS here or that HARRODS in the UK but you can't beat the bargains The customers are no surprise usually poor , both black & white who have to make every penny count .As usual moi loaded up on hosiery still in the original bags from often years/decades ago ( the hair on the models is usually hysterical) along with this a time a white sleeveless sheath dress and 2 pair of capri pants .Did have to laff at a painting of MICHAEL JACKSON that you can plug in the wall and it acts like a lamp .....................
No thanx , but later thought I should have given him my mom's phone number since he's definitely her type .Also came close to be run over.Moi was keeping a eye out for punks and junkies you can see around there and not watching crossing the street and because of that didn't see this huge old rust bucket Buick 225 speeding as if it was on the freeway that almost ran right over me .Leading me to blurt out a few swear words and jump back in sheer terror. Couldn't help but stand there for a few minutes just looking around . I may stay in a nice place now and area now but this for better or worse is where I'm from .Just like the hills are too . No matter how old or if I get rich will always have this place in my mind and soul. Will have to post someday about my ideas about that , a mix of happyness for getting out , pride for doing it, never wanting to go back , all sorts of bad memorys , but also some great memorys & feelings and like a past shrink & my present analyst say learning some real skills ,Coming soon ...................
.That did make me feel more relaxed and with a jean jacket over my head as a umbrella took off my clogs and like nothing bothered me walked in the rain & thru the pudddles into the hotel .
) in the basement unexpectedly .I've posted about that here before.
Rafael and Shireen our trusty pt'er worked the overflowing bar .Wierd Norm whose so lazy & slow was exiled to a reception in a suite while Cassady and I with 2 temps did a corporate mega party in the Grande Ballroom . It was like dealing with a pack of wild animals but at least they tipped well . The corporation said they'd give us a tip but since no one said not to first me then Cassady and the others soon all put there own tip cups As always appearence crazed Cassady had new shoes too, last nite these brite as the sun silver platform sandels with all sorts of straps going above the ankles .They actually reminded me of some s & m device for feet . Also one of the temps said since they were so shiney he bet sunlite reflecting of them could cause blindness.............
by Lena on Sat May 03, 2008 2:37 pm
Finally Narla just said something along the lines of "To hell with this " and started walking to the cars . Christine and I laffed and followed .When I pulled out of the lot Cassady still teasing with the cops ...............
by Lena on Sun May 04, 2008 4:20 pm
Everyone will have to wait for tomorrow for the big post about me & the derby .Sorry .
. Like yesterday am too tired , worked from 3PM to almost 8AM this morning . Also no real time , it's 11 AM here and I have to be at my pt job at the country club in a hour . Maybe later if I' m not dead of exhaustion or in a coma from almost no sleep and too much work for 2 days now .
Not only feel beat but have sore feet & back and clammy skin even after a long hot shower .The stress headaches come off and on too.Lucky moi ..................... 
Karin was stoked and wanted to go out to eat but moi had no energy . Hee hee, 10 minutes after getting home little miss energy was sleeping .
by Lena on Mon May 05, 2008 2:12 pm
The derby is over for another year and I can finnally relax. 
Moi really is wasted with NO energy .All totalled worked 32 hour