by Vaseline on Tue Oct 30, 2007 2:53 am
I posted this as a separate thread (on Saturday)... but I only received on response. Hopefully, I get more here.
Okay guys, here is my story.
As soon as I turned 17, I applied for my provisional and started lessons. But stopped taking lessons and just totally forgot about driving.
By the time I was 23, I decided I wanted to give it a go again. So I took my theory test and figured that as I had my theory test, I'd be more determined to learn to drive.
Anyway, I began some lessons.. but gave up again because I didn't like my instructor - his car was not very clean and didn't smell nice. Obviously, I wasn't that determined - LOL
I had ANOTHER instructor... but didn't like him neither so stopped again.
Anyway, nearly a year after I had taken my theory, I decided to stop being silly and get my act togther. So I went back to my original driving school... the one I was with when I was 17. And started taking lessons again... I had finally found an instructor that I got on with and that took care of his car and was a good instructor. But money got short, so I had to stop again.
About 10 months later (April), I decided that I wasn't going to learn with an instructor. I know what I am like, I become slack and don't try as hard a I should. So, I bought a little runaround... and I know this is naughty, but I just started driving it.
After a month or so of driving, I called up my instructor and we started lessons again. He let me know of any bad habits I had picked up etc.
My theory was running out in October, I only had a few months left. So I booked my test for August. However, it was getting to August and I didn't feel ready, so I postponed until October... 8 days before my theory ran out.
I was more than ready for my test this time and did feel confident that I'd pass. I did put a lot of pressure on myself, because I knew that if I failed, it meant that I had to do the theory again.
Anyway, I got to the test and FAILED. I was driving too close to parked cars, the examiner had to turn the steering wheel. The funniest thing is, my instructor was very shocked when I told him, because I NEVER drive too close to parked cars... he often tells me I drive to wide. My friends also say the same thing... so I know that I over compensated - NERVES.
Anyway, I done the theory test again about 1 1/2 weeks later and after I done the theory test, I managed to find a test for that friday (yesterday). I coudn't believe my luck... only 15 days after my first test. I thought it was a good sign.
Anyway, I failed the test AGAIN.
Once again, for something soooooo stupid. I felt that was driving very well... but there was a point where I became unsure of which lane to use, as I wasn't sure whether or not the road turned off.... and the examiner had to AGAIN move the steering wheel. As soon as this happened, I lost all my nerves and drove excellently... I calmed right down. I guess the pressure was taken off me because I knew that I had failed.
My instructor and I were just confused, we were trying to come up with solutions as to why I keep failing and possible remedies. He says that I don't need anymore lessons, because there is nothing more I need to learn. He said that I need to stop stressing myself out so much.
When I got home, I cried real badly. I was so upset.
I feel like I keep on letting my instructor down... especially when he really believes I will pass.
I really don't know what to do anymore, because I feel that I am going to keep on failing. If I was failing on a technique, then it wouldn't bother me so much, because I can try to rectify that problem. But I keep failing on stupid things, because I am letting my nerves take over. On my second test day, I was sooooooo nervous. I felt like throwing up, my legs turned to jelly, mouth mouth was dry, I was shaking.
Why do I get myself worked up so much and how can I combat this?