PMS

[ScottyMc]

OMG I sooooo hate this time of the month.......... the week prior........ where you cry at the drop of a hat and get upset at things you normally better deal with.....

Does anyone else have PMS for an entire WEEK before they finally get it? Or am I some alien that is being punished in some sick way every single month?

I was talking to my 7yo about writing her Santa wish list and that we should probably also ask Santa to also please bring presents to kids who need them more than us, and I just started crying, thinking about those kids........ I excused myself and took the longest bath I've ever taken....... in tears. OMG I'm pathetic.

Taking out the boxes of ornaments today, there were pictures at the bottom ~ WEDDING PICTURES ~ ??? ~ of me and my 7yo's dad... so she wanted to look through them, and there are people in those pictures that are no longer alive...... then there's my baby secretly telling me (because she doesn't want to hurt my g/f's feelings, and plus she loves my g/f very much) ~ that she just wishes that me & daddy could still live together, so she doesn't have to go to 2 different houses and so she doesn't have to miss us when she's at the other one's house.

WTH?!?!?!? The holidays get me (and probably the majority of people) so nostalgic, and thinking of memories, both good and bad, and so many different emotions, PLUS the PMS on top of it... can someone just give me a gun right now?

Doesn't help that my g/f's got Mariah Carey songs playing on the stereo loudly......... so they're downstairs decorating the tree, and I'm up here trying to compose myself and figure out WTH is wrong with me. *Ugh* I wish there was some magic wand that could snap me out of this low mood and get into the holiday spirit. Right now holidays means broke, broke, broke and debt, debt, debt.......... and thus, guilt, guilt, guilt........

I realize my posts lately have been really dark. I'm sorry, this is not my usual self........ (my usual self is the Jo that drinks caffeine all day long and is fun and energetic and running around everywhere... I miss her right now.)

[lil*minx]

Just try to relax! You aren't an alien! I have to deal with the same BS every month and I know how you feel. It always seems worse this time of year since the holidays aren't the easiest to get through. Just do what you can and don't put added pressure on yourself to be someone else.